Bloody Sunday

wow.... at the beginning of the year I said that if I didnt flunk any courses, Id be a genius.

here I am, 3rd Year and no courses failed.

thats the greatest success of my life.

Ive just watched "bloody sunday", an Irish movie about the attack to a pacific march by the british groups in Londonderry.

I have to say I didnt imagine the attack as it was described in the film. I thought it was less terrible.

People running, scared. people being shot at, when they were doing nothing illegal. that's wirklich unfair. I know Im always on the british side, yet Ive always thought that was an unnecessary measrure to "keep the peace".
you cant make peace ny shooting innocent people...

and this conflict keeps on and on..

If youve gotthe chance of watching the movie (mihgt be a bit long) it is worthy.
Ill leave you with the song inspired by that day Sunday, Bloody Sunday by U2

I can't believe the news today
I can't close my eyes and make it go away.
How long, how long must we sing this song?
How long, how long?
'Cos tonight
We can be as one, tonight.

Broken bottles under children's feet
Bodies strewn across the dead-end street.
But I won't heed the battle call
It puts my back up, puts my back up against the wall.

Sunday, bloody Sunday.
Sunday, bloody Sunday.
Sunday, bloody Sunday.
Sunday, bloody Sunday.
Oh, let's go.

And the battle's just begun
There's many lost, but tell me who has won?
The trenches dug within our hearts
And mothers, children, brothers, sisters
Torn apart.

Sunday, bloody Sunday.
Sunday, bloody Sunday.

How long, how long must we sing this song?
How long, how long?
'Cos tonight
We can be as one, tonight.
Sunday, bloody Sunday.
Sunday, bloody Sunday.

Wipe the tears from your eyes
Wipe your tears away.
I'll wipe your tears away.
I'll wipe your tears away.
I'll wipe your bloodshot eyes.
Sunday, bloody Sunday.
Sunday, bloody Sunday.

And it's true we are immune
When fact is fiction and TV reality.
And today the millions cry
We eat and drink while tomorrow they die.

The real battle just begun
To claim the victory Jesus won
On...

Sunday, bloody Sunday
Sunday, bloody Sunday..

...

La verdad es que tenia super botado el blog.

la verdad es que han pasado muchas cosas y por culpa del tiempo, u, tareas que corregir y paja en general no he escrito nada.


y tanta paja tengo que me da lata escribrir en ingles.


Y wea que han pasado cosas... y pasaran mas todavia.

no quiero hacer muchas cosas que estoy obligada a hacer para mantener esta existencia vacia y pajera que llevo.

de verdad me pregunto de que sirve si las cosas no cambian y nunca lo haran.

lata

mejor que venga el cataclismo luego
ya no hago nada
ya no se me ocurre nada, me bloquee

y de verdad no quiero hacer nada porque nada va a cambiar

aunque SI estoy feliz con mi pololo, siento que el hecho que el resto de mi vida este como la mierda a veces es mas fuerte que mi felicidad de estar con alguien tan genial.

NO se si sera el ultimo posteo que dejo aca... cualquier cosa el fotolog esta un poco mas activo.


y pensar que era muy optimista cuando empece el blog...


Best Wishes
Molks xxx

Der Morgen Danach

So viele Menschen sehen Dich
Doch niemand sieht Dich so wie ich
Denn in dem Schatten deines Lichts
Ganz weit dort hinten sitze ich
Ich brauche Dich - Ich brauch dein Licht
Denn aus dem Schatten kann ich nicht
Du siehst mich nicht - du kennst mich nicht
Doch aus der Ferne lieb ich Dich
Ich achte Dich - verehre Dich
Ich hoff auf Dich - begehre Dich
Erfühle Dich - erlebe Dich
begleite Dich - erhebe Dich
Kann nicht mehr leben ohne Dich

Dies ist der Morgen danach
Und meine Seele liegt brach
Dies ist der Morgen danach
Ein neuer Tag beginnt
Und meine Zeit verrint

Dieses alles schreib ich dir
Und mehr noch brächt ich zu Papier
Könnt ich in Worten alles Leiden
Meiner Liebe dir beschreiben
Nicht die Botschaft zu beklagen
Sollen diese Zeilen tragen
Nur - Ich liebe Dich - doch sagen

Heute Nacht erhälst du dies
Ich bete daß du dieses liest
Im Morgengrauen erwart ich Dich
Ich warte auf dein strahlend Licht
Ich träume daß du mich bald siehst
Du morgen in den Schatten kniest
Und mich zu dir ins Lichte ziehst

Dies ist der Morgen danach
Und meine Seele liegt brach
Dies ist der Morgen danach
Ein neuer Tag beginnt
Und meine Zeit verrint


long time without writing...


this song's by Lacrimosa and its beautiful...

there's nothing better than waking up next to someone you love... the song's got nothing to do with it, but I remembered...






tomorrow's the concert..if anyone's going.. enjoy it and call me!!!!

Best wishes
Molks xxx

some people have asked me to update...

sorry..
I haven't had time for anything...


for the same reason I won't post a song today...

for all those who care about me..
I'm happy....
and I'm no longer a spinster..
lol


people... see you in linares for the 18..
I'll tell you everything when we have our aquelarre... DDR included!!!!!

Best wishes
Molks xxx

An einem Morgen

AN DEM MORGEN EINES MORGENS
SAH´N WIR DES MORGENS TIEFSTEN SCHEIN
WILD UND WILLIG, WARM UND BILLIG
BITTE LAß MICH, WECK MICH NICHT

WIR FRAßEN UNS AM REST DES MONDES SATT UND FREI
VON STIRN ZU STIRN VOM BESTEN BIS ZUM HEILIGSTEN
WIR FRAßEN UNS AM REST DES MONDES SATT UND FREI
HINTER DIESEN WÄNDEN ZU MORGENS TIEFSTEM SCHEIN

SCHAU HER, DU KANNST UNS BUCHEN
HIER SIND ALLE GLEICH
NIMM DEN REST DES KUCHENS
UND LAß UNS SEIN, SEIN, SEIN

No time to translate it into English or Spanish.
It tells a story of a morning, wehre you wake up next to someone special... and you ask not to wake up because you don't want it to end. that's the general idea..

I love it.. it's one of the thing I like when Im dating someone... and also, its not necessary to have a boyfriend... you can wake up next to a friend and feel the same. although i dont feel lonely, id love to spend more time with some people i dont have the chance of visiting or spending more time with eachother..

right..





ok..
what's going on?

no fucking idea..
i dont care much either...
just waiting for my time to come. I dont want to make it myself coz it won't work anyway..
what's the meaning of success?
what's the meaning of everything?
what's death?

does it really matter?

I don't think so.. as long as you dont fear it..

is there a tomorrow?

Best Wishes
Molks xxx

Leaving So Soon? by Keane

Ah, ah ah, ah ah, ah!
Ah, ah ah, ah ah, ah!

You must think I'm a fool
So prosaic and awkward and all
D'you think you've got me down?
D'you think I've never been out of this town?
Do I seem too eager to please to you now?
You don't know me at all

I can't turn it on, turn it off like you now
I'm not like you now
Now you're here
I bet you're wishing you could disappear
I'm trying to be kind
I get the feeling you're just killing time

You look down on me
Don't you look down on me now
You don't know me at all
A slap in the face
In the face for you now
Just might do now

You're leaving so soon
Never had a chance to bloom
But you were so quick
To change your tune
Don't look back
If I'm a weight around your neck
Cos if you don't need me
I don't need you

Ah, ah ah, ah ah, ah!
Ah, ah ah, ah ah, ah!
Leaving so soon, soon
Leaving, leaving so, soon
You're leaving so soon
Never had a chance to bloom
But you were so quick
To change your tune
Don't look back
If I'm a weight around your neck
Cos if you don't need me
Then I don't need you
Ah, ah ah, ah ah, ah!

This is an awesome song by Keane, form the album “Under the Iron Sea”.
I chose this song because it is the way I feel towards some people.
I like the ironic tone of it, though the melody of it is sort of happy and maybe even cheesy.


I don’t have much to say.. I’m a bit tired and I’ve been very busy, despite I’m just on my second week after the winter break.

Best Wishes
Molks xxx

holiday

OK...


I'm here in the city I hate...


but today I remember the only thing I like in here...


the bloody mountains!
there were all snowy and beautiful....


that's the only good thing opf this place...


wanna play pool with my people.-... but there's no one here...

I've been writing a lot...

thinking a lot


analysing a lot...


I want to go back.
thanks to all the people who have sent me their support... lol

love you all
best wishes
Molks xxx


I dont have a song today... sorry

No Volveré a Caer by Phono

Ya no habrá mas fuego dentro de mi corazón.
Se apagó el encanto dulce que sentía por ti.
Tú no haces nada que me haga sentir bien…
Me queda ser infiel.

Y siento que mañana será mejor,
Quiero entender que existe alguien más,
Como recuperar los años que te deje,
No volveré a caer, No volveré a caer.

La monotonía juega con mi voluntad .
Se apagó la adrenalina que sentía por ti.
Tu no haces nada que me haga sentir bien.
Mi sueño esta al revés.

Y siento que mañana será mejor,
Quiero entender que existe alguien más,
Como recuperar los años que te deje,
No volveré a caer, No volveré a caer.

Y siento que mañana será mejor,
Quiero entender que existe alguien más,
Como recuperar los años que te deje,
No volveré a caer, No volveré a caer.


It´s a promise to myself.... hope to keep it...



keine Lust of going on holidays..
I'll work on my projects this weekend, but if anyone wants to come and pay a visit... you're welcome.. I'll be here by myself

Best Wishes
Molks xxx

Siehst du mich im Licht? by Lacrimosa... WITH TRANSLATION

Deine Lippen in das Fleisch gepresst
Die Meinen wild verzerrt
Der Orgasmus der Verwundbarkeit
Die Seele schreit nach mehr
Nur herein in meine kleine Welt
Und friss dich durch bis zum Schafott
Zerbeisse jede Zelle meiner kalten rohen Haut

Und du bleibst leer
Hast zerstört
Nur fur Sekunden diesen Rausch erlebt
Und du bleibst leer
Hast gelogen und betrogen
Und bei allem dich nur selbst projeziert

Zwei Augen im Kopf
Und die Ohren links und rechts
Und so blind wie ein toter Fisch
Du kannst mich nicht verstehen
Nein - du wirst mich nie verstehen
Nur reden kannst du über mich
Dir ist es scheissegal ob es wahr ist oder nicht
Denn am Ende trifft es niemals dich
Du bist die letzte Instanz
Du bist die Pegel der Bilanz
Du bist der Mörder jeder Wahrheitssubstanz

Im kurzen Augenblick
Des blinden Übermuts
Verspruhst du deine Weisheit
Deine Falschheit - Deine Sucht
Und du bist dir nichts bewusst
Deine Dummheit ist die Lust
Die deinen Verstand langsam ausradiert
Und du bleibst leerHast zerstört
Nur Für Sekunden diesen einen kurzen Rausch erlebt
Und du brauchst mehr
Du musst gelügen und betrügen
Und bei allem -Siehst du mich im Licht?!?

Zwei Augen im Kopf
Und die Ohren links und rechts
Und so taub wie ein toter Fisch
Du kannst mich nicht verstehen
Nein - du wirst mich nie verstehen
Nur schreiben kannst du über mich
Dir ist es scheissegal ob es wahr ist oder nicht
Denn am Ende trifft es niemals dich
Du bist die letzte Instanz
Du bist der Pegel der Bilanz
Du bist der Mörder jeder Wahrheitssubstanz
Nicht im Gesprach liegt deine Kraft
Im Monolog suchst du die Opfer
Deren Dasein dich am Leben halt
Zwei Augen im Kopf
Und das Herz am falschen Platz
Du bleibst das Echo unsrer Zeit
Du bist das Sprachrohr weit und breit
Nicht viele Worte mocht ich machen
Denn du machst ja schon genug
Wahrscheinlich wirst du wieder lachen
Solange trinke ich dein Blut

Zwei Augen im Kopf
Und das Herz am falschen Platz
Und so taub wie ein toter Fisch
Du kannst mich nicht verstehen
Nein - du wirst mich nicht verstehen
Du wirst mich nicht verstehen!

CAN YOU SEE ME IN THE LIGHT?
Your lips pressed into the flesh
Mine wildly contorted
In the orgasm of vulnerability
The soul is crying out for more
Come along into my little world
And eat your way through to the scaffold
Chew each cell of my cold raw skin to pieces

And you remain empty
You have destroyed
Only experienced this ecstasy for seconds
And you remain empty
You lied and deceived
And only projected yourself in all this

Two eyes in your head
And the ears left and right
And as blind as a dead fish
You cannot understand me
No - you will never understand me
You can only talk about me
You don't give a shit if it's true or not
Because it never affects you in the end
You are the last authority
You are the gauge of the balance
You are the murderer of each essence of truth

In a short moment
Of blind arrogance
You sense your wisdom
Your falseness - your obsession
And you are not aware that
Your stupidity is the desire
Which is slowing erasing your mind
And you remain empty
You have destroyed
Only experienced this ecstasy for seconds
And you need more
You must lie and deceive
And in all of this -Can you see me in the light?

Two eyes in your head
And the ears left and right
And as blind as a dead fish
You cannot understand me
No - you will never understand me
You can only write about me
You don't give a shit if it's true or not
Because it never affects you in the end
You are the last authority
You are the gauge of the balance
You are the murderer of each essence of truth

Your strength doesn't lie in talking
You look for your victims in monologues
Whose beings keep you alive
Two eyes in your head
And your heart in the wrong place
You are the echo of our time
You are the mouthpiece far and wide
I don't want to make any words
Since it is you who makes enough already
You will probably laugh again
In the meantime I'll drink your blood

Two eyes in your head
And your heart in the wrong place
And as deaf as a dead fish
You cannot understand me
No - you will never understand me
You will never understand me!


OK!! for all those who don't understand German... the English translation. I didn't do it so it's not my responsability...


i love this song.. it's so us... that's why I like it perhaps..

dunno what to say... I DON'T WANNA LEAVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm gonna miss so many people.. special people that only here I can find... special people I've met in these months... VERY special people that have given me a new perspective of life, an opinion... that have made ask about everything.. taht have made me think and work... people I've shared very special moments with... I'm gonna miss them so much!!! at least I have my projects...
best wishes
Molks xxx

You Know You're Right, by Nirvana

I will never bother you
I will never promise to
I will never follow you
I will never bother you

Never speak a word again
I will crawl away for good

I will move away from here
You wont be afraid of fear
No thought was put in to this
I always knew it would come to this

Things have never been so swell
I have never failed to feel
Pain [3x]

You Know your Right [3x]

I'm so warm and calm inside
I no longer have to hide
Let’s talk about someone else
Steaming soup against her mouth
Nothing really bothers her
She just wants to love herself

I will move away from here
You wont be afraid of fear
No thought was put into this
I always knew to come like this

Things have never been so swell
I have never failed to feel
Pain [5x]

You know Your Right [17x]

Pain [1x]





Right.. it came to this...

I have to.
I need to..
I must to...

It wasn’t enough to have broken up, it wasn’t enough to play with me, it wasn’t enough to feel used by you. No. You had to go further and, besides all the things mentioned above, you had to disappoint me. Not once, not twice... but nore time than I can remember and stand.

How could you?

Did you mean all the things you told me? I seriously can’t understand you. And you can’t understand me. it doesn't matter though... because I will do exactly as the lyrics of this song say. I will never bother you..
and it doesn't matter because you know you're right. you always were. But I'm right now. I don't think you'll ever come back to me because when I say that you don't care, I really meant it. You only come to me when you need something..

I hope this is the last time you do this. I’m not there for you anymore, as you weren’t when I needed you. I can’t believe that I went from loving you so much to this feeling, mixture of despise and pain.

Then again, you’re the only one who can make me feel such strong things.

I would like to say it’s over. But I’m almost sure that sooner or later, I’ll be back in your arms... even if I don’t want to.

Even if it’s just for a short moment of pleasure and lust, just as we like it.

I have to be strong and not to fall again.
I have to.
I need to..
I must to...


Best Wishes
Molks xxx

Sachliche Romance

Als sie einander acht Jahre kannten
und man darf sagen: sie kannten sich gut,
kam ihre Liebe plötzlich abhanden.
Wie andern Leuten ein Stock oder Hut.

Sie waren traurig, betrugen sich heiter,
versuchten Küsse, als ob nichts sei,
und sahen sich an und wußten nicht weiter.
Da weinte sie schließlich. Und er stand dabei.

Vom Fenster aus konnte man Schiffen winken,
Er sagte es wäre schon Viertel nach Vier
und Zeit, irgendwo Kaffee zu trinken.
Nebenan übte ein Mensch Klavier.

Sie gingen ins kleinste Cafe am Ort
und rührten in ihren Tassen.
Am Abend saßen sie immer noch dort.
Sie saßen allein, und sie sprachen kein Wort
und konnten es einfach nicht fassen.

(Erich Kästner)


ok.. To change the lyrics..

this is a poençm about a breakup.. about a relationship that is now over... in spite that they knew each other since a long time. What a paradox..

to know a person and to feel that you dont know her/him at all..


ok... i was thinking about writing something very cool.. but the plan failed...


looking forward to next week... its bound to be better than the last one...

Best wishes
Molks xxx

Days Before You Came

Days before you came
Freezing cold and empty
Towns that change their name
And a horn of plenty

Days before you came
Counting breaths inside me
Even crack cocaine
Couldn't start to hide me

Won't you join me now
Baby's looking torn and frayed
Join the masquerade
Join the masquerade

Won't you join me now
Baby's looking to get laid
Join the masquerade
Join the masquerade

Days before you came
It always seemed enticing
to be naked and profane
there is no denying

Days before you came
Thunderbolts and lightning
Each day a brand new vein
Each tourniquet colliding

Didn't want you anyway [x4]

Won't you join me now
Baby's looking torn and frayed
Join the masquerade
Join the masquerade

Won't you join me now
Baby's looking to get laid
Join the masquerade
Join the masquerade

Days before you came [repeat]

I'm sure I've posted this song before... but in order of the recent events I have to do it again.
I need to say that I didn¡t want him... I'm so sick of him, of everything.. Sometimes I really wish I never met him or never fell for him.

on the other hand... this new friend is the best thing that has ever happened to me. He's definitely the most interesting person I've ever had the pleasure to meet. and of course, that days before he came were absolutely worthless...

I'm not saying that my friends are not worthy, it's just that I'm in awe... how can someone be so damn nice??

I had forgotten how sweet can some eyes be, and how warm a smile can be... when it's an honest smile. Not the everyday smile.. a true one..

I'm sick of acid rain.. I regret taking such a stupid thing to do an oral report... alwaysstasthesame, nothingeverchanges...


Best Wishes
Molks xxx

Home :P

I'm going home...



I don't know if I really want to, but at 5 o'clock I'll be on the bus.


I should have stayed in Concepcion but I can't change the ticket now...

What an idiot I am...

take care and best wishes
Molks xxx

Buttons, Pussycat Dolls

I'm telling you loosen up my buttons baby (Uh huh)
But you keep fronting (Uh)
Saying what you going to do to me (Uh huh)
But I ain't seen nothing (Uh)

I'm telling you loosen up my buttons baby (Uh huh)
But you keep fronting (Uh)
Saying what you going to do to me (Uh huh)
But I ain't seen nothing (Uh)

Typical
Hardly the type I fall for
I'm liking the physical
Don't leave me asking for more
I'm a sexy mama (Mama)
Who knows just how to get what I want and (Want and)
What I want to do is spring this on you (On you)
Back up all of the things that I told you (Told you)

You been saying all the right things all along
But I can't seem to get you over here to help take this off
Baby, can't you see?
How these clothes are fitting on me
And the heat coming from this beat
I'm about to blow
I don't think you know

I'm telling you loosen up my buttons baby (Uh huh)
But you keep fronting (Uh)
Saying what you going to do to me (Uh huh)
But I ain't seen nothing (Uh)

I'm telling you loosen up my buttons baby (Uh huh)
But you keep fronting (Uh)
Saying what you going to do to me (Uh huh)
But I ain't seen nothing (Uh)

You say you're a big boy
But I can't agree
'Cause the love you said you had
Ain't been put on meI wonder
If I'm just too much for you
WonderIf my kiss don't make you just
Wonder
What I got next for you
What you want to do? (Do)

Take a chance to recognize that this could be yours
I can see, just like most guys that your game don't please
Baby, can't you see?
How these clothes are fitting on me
And the heat coming from this beat
I'm about to blow
I don't think you know


How sexy, isn't it? I would love todedicate it, but the one I have in mind doesn¡t deserve it at all... I hate when he acts like a complete idiot, and when I need to tell him to stop, he turns into this sweet guy that I love that I regret and I keep the same old game we've been playing for so long.
I'm so tired of it... of him.. of everything, to be honest.

I need to rest...

I have nothing special to say today... just that I have many internal debates about going home or not, doing what I have to do or not, giving him the elbow once and for all... no fucking idea. Right now I have presentation stress... Everytime that I have a big presentation, I can't sleep. I can be tired as hell, but when the time comes, I can't sleep at all.

I would take the pills again but they are too strong..

advices to the comments box, plz!


best wishes
Molks xxx
P.s.: if I offended anyone with the previous post, I'm sorry.. but as a disclaimer... I SAID THAT IT WAS JUST WHAT I WAS FEELING AT THEMOMENT. althoug manyof the things I wrote are true... sorry.

y ahora que? (capitulo 4)

hoy tome la decision de escribir en español.

hoy quise desvincularme aunque sea un poco de mi primer idioma. (jajaja)

hoy quiero hacer un verdadero brainstorming.

asi que aca va. las mayoria de las cosas pareceran incoherencias, pero el cerebro tiene millones de conexiones extrañas (preguntar a ferre)


siempre me pregunte que pasaria si las cosas cambiaran entre esa perosna y yo. quien seria el primero en dar el paso y definitivamente terminar todo de una buena vez, algo que quizas nunca debio haber pasado,.
me molesta de sobremanera la gran influencia que tiene sobre mi persona. no existe nadie que me haga enojar tan facilmente, y tampoco existe alguien que me alegre un rato con un gesto simple como decir hola de vez en cuando

hasta cuando seguimos con esta wea, me carga que te desaparezcas y que no des la cara, eres tan inmaduro que me da una lata enorme a veces tener que aguantarte. porque no hay otra palabra. no me vengas con estupideces, es tu deber cumplir con las cosas que te pido

a pesar de todo, te extraño.
lo mas probable es que tu no, pero aun asi. es lo que siento en este momento

estoy tan cansada de tener que ser la que saque la cara. estoy cansada de la actitud enferma de ceirtas personas. estoy cansada de la envidia weona. que cresta les importa lo que hago y con quien?. pense que habia dejado eso cuando me fui de ese pueblo de mierda... poero no... hay gente weona en todos lados. sobretodo los provincianos.
lo que son provincianos me van a disculpar pero encuentro que todos tienen el patron de andar viendo las weas que hacen las personas y juzgandolas de inmediato por eso. que estupidez.

ok, no soy puramente capitalina.. pero eso se lleva siempre en el corazon, y a la vez soy penquista de corazon. porque en esta ciudad he encontrado la paz interior que buscaba.. la libertad de hacer lo que se me de la gana y que a nadie le importe. porque a decir verdad.. la mayoria de la gente de aca, quiere ser santiaguina entonces imitan ciertas actitudes. ok dejo de hablar pestes de los huasos..


hugo chavez es un grandisimo pelotudo y en realidad los lideres mundiales en general.la musica deberia ser nuestro gobernante. imaginate a bono de presidente del mundo. todos serian felices Y tendriamos buena musica. o alguin como sting.... no se.. ya estoy escribiendo mierda


odio las clases de ingles. como me gustaria hacer el internship en la cas de sso! super! no se como esos profes pueden hacer incluso los temas mas geniales e interesantes la wea mas paja del mundo


que mierda me importa la wea del CAE si ni siquiera estamos haciendo practicos! los reports son una mierda y me encantaria ser hacker para destruir a lextutor (el programa mas maligno de la tierra) tambien varias paginas malignas.. como el infoalumno y dicom.

me aburri... seguiria tirando mierda pero tendria que involucrar a muchas personas y no es bueno. es una lata hacer esto... pero es el pensadero mas barato que tengo.
Best Wishes
Molks xxx



y use colores que jamas usaria...

Bedshaped, by Keane. (For You, Rodrigo a.k.a. Cofla)

Bedshaped
Many's the time I ran with you down
The rainy roads of our old town
Many the lives we lived in each day
And buried altogether

Don't laugh at me
Don't look away

You'll follow me back
With the sun in your eyes
And on your own
Bedshaped
And legs of stone
You'll knock on my door
And up we'll go
In white light
I don't think so
But what do I know?
What do I know?
I know!

I know you think I'm holding you down
And I've fallen by the wayside now
And I don't understand the same things as you
But I do
Don't laugh at me
Don't look away

You'll follow me back
With the sun in your eyes
And on your own
Bedshaped
And legs of stone
You'll knock on my door
And up we'll go
In white light
I don't think so
But what do I know?
What do I know?
I know!

And up we'll go

In white light

I don't think so

But what do I know?

What do I know?

I know!

I've forgotten about something that happened last weekend.
My friend's death aniversary.

I wento to visit him at the cemetery... by myself. For some reason I didn't want to go with my sister like I always do.
as I was walking towards his grave, there was something on it.

I came closer.
I sat where I always do. and I saw a drawing from his daughter... and it said "I love you". the picture was filled with hearts and there was a drawing that I think it was my friend, watering the flowers.

I lost control.

I started crying... Something about that picture moved me so much I couldn't help it.
And then I remembered...

The first time I listened to that song I thought of him, and I said to myself "someday I'll sing that song to you".


There was no one else there... just a couple of ladies visiting someone else.
I closed my eyes and I sang...

In a moment, as I was singing, I felt better. I stopped crying and I was able to think about all the cool things we did together.

but I still can't get over it...


to my special friend. the song's for you.

to the rest of my friends...

I LOVE YOU ALL!!!! sometimes I just want to be with you. sorry for being so me.

that's all for today
best wishes
Molks xxx

It's The End of the World As We Know It (And I Feel Fine), By R.E.M.

That's great, it starts with an earthquake, birds and
snakes, an aeroplane and Lenny Bruce is not afraid.
Eye of a hurricane, listen to yourself churn -
worldserves its own needs, dummy serve your own needs.
Feed it off an aux speak, grunt, no, strength,
Ladderstart to clatter with fear fight down height.
Wire in a fire, representing seven games,
a government for hire and a combat site.
Left of west and coming in
a hurry with the furies breathing down your neck.
Team by team reporters baffled, trumped, tethered cropped.
Look at that low playing! Fine, then.
Uh oh,overflow, population, common food, but it'll do.
Save yourself, serve yourself.
World serves its own needs,
listen to your heart bleed dummy with the rapture and
the revered and the right, right.
You vitriolic,patriotic, slam, fight, bright light, feeling prettypsyched.

It's the end of the world as we know it.
It's the end of the world as we know it
.It's the end of the world as we know it and I feel fine.

Six o'clock - TV hour. Don't get caught in foreign
towers. Slash and burn, return, listen to yourself
churn. Locking in, uniforming, book burning, blood
letting. Every motive escalate. Automotive incinerate.
Light a candle, light a votive. Step down, step down.
Watch your heel crush, crushed, uh-oh, this means no
fear cavalier. Renegade steer clear! A tournament,
tournament, a tournament of lies. Offer me solutions,
offer me alternatives and I decline.

It's the end of the world as we know it.
It's the end of the world as we know it.
It's the end of the world as we know it and I feel fine.

The other night I dreamt of knives, continental
drift divide. Mountains sit in a line, Leonard
Bernstein. Leonid Brezhnev, Lenny Bruce and Lester
Bangs. Birthday party, cheesecake, jelly bean, boom!
Yousymbiotic, patriotic, slam book neck, right? Right.

It's the end of the world as we know it.
It's the end of the world as we know it.
It's the end of the world as we know it and I feel
fine...fine...
(It's time I had some time alone)


Well..

In Metdologia we are working on texts about global warming and global dimming...

that's the reason I'm posting this song..
I mean besides of scorching, we re getting darker now? how didn't we realise before?
fucking thing..
nevertheless, I dont care! I mean I'm going to die soon, I hope, so I won't live to see this whole diosaster.. the prob is now; that my next me will have to endure this..
anyway, it is an interesting subject, but I hate feeling so paranoid...

BTW, I hate 3rd year... I want my life back please!!!

that's all...
Best Wishes
Molks xxx

The Sound of Muzak, Porcupine Tree

The Sound Of Muzak

Hear the sound of music
Drifting in the aisles
Elevator prozac
Stretching on for miles

The music of the future
Will not entertain
It's only meant to repress
And neutralise your brain

Soul gets squeezed out
Edges get blunt
Demographic
Gives what you want

Now the sound of music
Comes in silver pills
Engineered to suit you
Building cheaper thrills

The music of rebellion
Makes you wanna rage
But it's made by millionaires
Who are nearly twice your age

One of the wonders of the world is going down
It's going down I know
It's one of the blunders of the world that no-one cares
No-one cares enough


I've always said that I've got a special relationship with music... I'ts very hard to explain, but music has always been present in my life and therefore, important.

this song by PT talks about a new of making music, that I consider a blasphemy! Music can't be stopped and it shouldn't come in pills.. the vibration you feel when you are listening to a song that you like... or even stronger, when you're in a concert..

ok, I've only been to a concert once.,.. but I'll never forget what I felt that night...
I write about this 'cause I've been meeting new bands, which is always exciting

I'm in class right now and the teacher is talking about sonething I couldn't care less...

Going home this weekend...
hope everything works out fine...

Best Wishes
Molks xxx

SOY ELECTRONICA

Soy Electrónico Soy Electrónico
Soy Electrónico Soy Electrónico
El botón color caramelo me miro
El botón color caramelo me miro
Tengo subwoofer
Tengo palm
Tengo zapatillas raras
Y uso laptop

Soy Electrónico Soy Electrónico
Soy Electrónico Soy Electrónico
Voy a la disco me subo a la tarima
Veo wea Veo wea Veo wea
Veo wea Veo wea Veo wea
Veo wea Veo wea
Porque soy electronico
Soy Electrónico Soy Electrónico
Soy Electrónico Soy Electrónico
Soy Electrónico

Tengo cool edit y uso fruity loops
fruity loops fruity loops
fruity fruity fruity loops
Porque soy electronico
Tech machine Tech machine
Tony Mass Dj Wask Dj Wask
Soy amigo de cabezas

Soy Electronico Soy Electronico
Soy Electronico Soy Electronico
Soy Electronico Uso el reason
No se me va en collera Uso el reason
No se me va en collera
Crackeo programas
Porque soy electronico Soy Electronico
Soy Electronico Soy Electronico
Soy Electronico Soy Electronico
Veo wea Veo wea Veo wea
Veo wea Veo wea Veo wea
Veo wea Veo wea
Porque soy electronico Soy Electronico
Soy Electronico
Voy al riesco en mi City Car
No hago fila Tomo mineral
Saludo a Marciano En el bar
Y quedo solo Hablando weas

Porque soy electronico
Soy Electronico Soy Electronico
Soy Electronico Soy Electronico
Soy Electronico
Tengo fonos cuaticos Tengo fonos cromados
Tengo fonos cromados Porque soy electronico
Tengo fonos cromados Porque soy electronico

Tengo sed tengo sed
Quiero mineral quiero mineral
de 3 lucas quiero mineral
de 3 lucas quiero mineral
de 3 lucas

Porque soy electronico
Cecilia Amenabar y Gustavo Cerati
Son mis amigos
Veo wea Veo wea Veo wea
Veo wea Veo wea Veo wea
Veo wea Veo wea
Oh que estuvo weno el loop


ok.. esta es la cancion mas idiota que voy a subir..


ultimamente me he sentido electronica... y segun la nueva version de la cancion que habla del fotolog y weas varias, me puse a pensar:

tengo flog
tengo 2 blogs, y creo que hare otro
tengo facebook
tagged

mis fonos son cuaticos...


y si apareciera otra cosa como esas, creo que me crearia una..

han sentido fiebre tecnologica??
yo si!
eso...
Best Wishes
Molks xxx

Freak on a Leash

Something takes a part of me.
Something lost and never seen.
Everytime I start to believe,
Somethings raped and taken from me... from me.
Lifes got to always be messing with me. (you wanna see the light)
Cant they chill and let me be free? (so do I)
Cant I take away all this pain. (you wanna see the light)
I try to every night, all in vain... in vain.

Sometimes I cannot take this place.
Sometimes its my life I cant taste.
Sometimes I cannot feel my face.
Youll never see me fall from grace
Something takes a part of me.
You and I were meant to be.
A cheap fuck for me to lay
Something takes a part of me.

Feeling like a freak on a leash. (you wanna see the light)
Feeling like I have no release. (so do I)
How many times have I felt diseased? (you wanna see the light)
Nothing in my life is free... is free

Sometimes I cannot take this place.
Sometimes its my life I cant taste.
Sometimes I cannot feel my face.
Youll never see me fall from grace
Something takes a part of me.
You and I were meant to be.
A cheap fuck for me to lay
Something takes a part of me

So...fight! something on the...
Fight...some things they fight
So...something on the...
Fight...some things they fight
Fight...something of the
No...some things they fight
Fight...something of the...
Fight...some things they fight

Something takes a part of me.
You and I were meant to be.
A cheap fuck for me to lay
Something takes a part of me.
Part of me...Part of me...Part of me...Oh...



I loved the unplugged version with amy lee..


I post it because that's the way I fell right now...



Comments??


NONE...


Best Wishes
Molks xxx

Mach die Augen zu und küss mich

Mach die Augen zu und küss mich
und dann sag, dass du mich liebst
Ich weiß genau, es ist nicht Wahr
doch ich spüre keinen Unterschied
wenn du dich mir hingibst...

Mach die Augen zu und küss mich
mach mir ruhig etwas vor
ich vergesse was passiert ist
und ich hoffe und ich träume
ich hätt dich noch nicht verloren

es ist mir total egal,
ob du wirklich etwas fühlst
...tu was du willst

Mach die Augen zu und küss mich
ist es auch das letzte Mal
lass uns den Moment des Abschieds noch verzögern
Lass mich jetzt noch nicht allein mit meiner Qual

Mach die Augen zu und küss mich
mach mir ruhig etwas vor
Wenn du willst kannst du dann gehen
Aber denk dran ohne dich,
ohne dich bin ich verloren...

Es ist mir absolut egal
ob du nurnoch mit mir spielst
Tu was du willst

Mach die Augen zu
mach die Augen zu
mach die Augen zu und küss mich
mach die Augen zu
mach die Augen zu
mach die Augen zu und küss mich


to all those who don't know german...
the song is about someone who tells someone to close his/her eyes and kiss him/her... that it doesnt matter it she/he says i love you and it's not true... that he/she doesnt care if she/he is playing with him/her... but that he or she must think that without him/or her/ she or he is lost.

things that a 21st century independent woman shouldn't say or think... but I do...

CONFUSED AS HELL...


waiting for the long weekend to see what happens...
best wishes
Molks xxx

The Kill, 30 seconds to Mars

The Kill
What if I wanted to break
Laugh it all off in your face
What would you do? (Oh, oh)
What if I fell to the floor
Couldn't take all this anymore
What would you do, do, do?

Come break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with
if I wanted to fight
Beg for the rest of my life
What would you do?
You say you wanted more
What are you waiting for?
I'm not running from you (from you)

Come break me
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you
Look in my eyes
Youre killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you

I tried to be someone else
But nothing seemed to change
I know now, this is who I really am inside.
Finally found myself
Fighting for a chance.
I know now, this is who I really am.

Ah, ahOh, ohAh, ah
Come break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you, you, you.
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you
Come break me down (bury me, bury me)
Break me down (bury me, bury me)
Break me down (bury me, bury me)
(You say you wanted more)
What if I wanted to break...?
(What are you waiting for?)
Bury me, bury me
(I'm not running from you)
What if I
What if I
What if I
What if I
Bury me, bury me

I wanted to post this song a long time ago... I didnt know the name of the band nor the name of the song... If you remember Jared Leto from Requiem for a Dream.. you might like it... hes the singer... and hes fit! lol
I know its very Emo... but I like it anyway..

my blog looks different because I need to cahnge some things about myself, as I wrote in the previous post.
and I really need to find my way again.. Im a bit lost and I hate it.
what else??


I have to keep studying...
Best Wishes
Molks xxx

Tell me where did you sleep last night

My girl, my girl, don't lie to me,

Tell me where did you sleep last night.

In the pines, in the pines,

Where the sun don't ever shine.

I would shiver the whole night through.

My girl, my girl, where will you go?

I'm going where the cold wind blows.

In the pines, in the pines,

Where the sun don't ever shine.

I would shiver the whole night through

Her husband, was a hard working man,

Just about a mile from here.

His head was found in a driving wheel,

But his body never was found.

My girl, my girl, don't lie to me,

me where did you sleep last night.

the pines, in the pines,

the sun don't ever shine.

I would shiver the whole night through.

My girl, my girl, where will you go?

I'm going where the cold wind blows.

the pines, in the pines,

Where the sun don't ever shine.

I would shiver the whole night through.

My girl, my girl, don't lie to me,

Tell me where did you sleep last night.

In the pines, in the pines,

Where the sun don't ever shine

.I would shiver the whole night through.

My girl, my girl, where will you go?

I'm going where the cold wind blows.

In the pines, …the pines,……… sun,……….shine.

Im not very sure why Im uploading this song... maybe beacuse I really like it, a friend of mine lent me the cd, last week was Kurt Cobains death anniversary...

Ive got a problem with myself.... Its the part of me that believes that everyone should listen to me and the world would be better... and it shouldnt be like that, really...

and that pisses me off... hes not part of me anymore, and he shouldnt do anything for me unless he really wants to. the thing is that Im always expecting something... that he says something or that he does something... etc.

I really need to change that because its not doing me any good..

and I wanted to know where did he sleep last night...

thats all...

thanks to one people who post..

best wishes

Molks xxx

IDK

Make Damn Sure

You've got this new head filled up with smoke
I've got my veins all tangled close
To the jukebox bars you frequent
The safest place to hide
A long night spent with your most obvious weakness
You start shaking at the thought
you are everything I want
'Cause you are everything I'm not

And we lay, we lay together just not
Too close, too close (How close is close enough?)
We lay, we lay together just not
Too close, too close
I just wanna break you down so badly
Well I trip over everything you say
I just wanna break you down so badly
In the worst way

My inarticulate store bought hangover hobby kit
In time, it says, "You, oh, you are so cool."
It says, "Scissor shaped across the bed, you are red, violent red.
"You hollow out my hungry eyes
You hollow out my hungry eyes

And we lay, we lay together just not
Too close, too close (How close is close enough?)
We lay, we lay together just not
Too close, too close
I just wanna break you down so badly
Well I trip over everything you say
Well I just wanna break you down so badly
In the worst way
I just wanna break you down so badly
Well I trip over everything you say
I just wanna break you down so badly
In the worst way (worst way)

I'm gonna make damn sure that you can't ever leave
No, you won't ever get too far from me
You won't ever get too far from me
I'll make damn sure that you can't ever leave
No, you won't ever get too far from me
You won't ever get too far from me
You won't ever get too far from me
You won't ever get too far...

I just wanna break you down so badly
Well I trip over everything you say
Well I just wanna break you down so badly
In the worst way (worst way)
I'm gonna make damn sure
I just wanna bring you down so badly
I just wanna bring you down so badly (damn sure)
In the worst way (worst way)

fucked is the word that im looking for right now...
my head goes mad and the worst is that I cant help it. Im losing it. Im losing myself. there is only one thing that keeps me alive and I wont say what it is... but its a good one.Ive lost interest in so many things...
BTW, the song is by taking back sundays...
and it tells what I want to do
thats all for today. no one reads this blog anyway.... but its cool to have it... otherwise I would have closed it a looooooooong time ago.
Best Wishes
Molks xxx

Mercy in You

I still dont feel very well... I'm so sick of everything... I'm about to give up.
too tired to carry on...
too tired to wait for you
too tired of waiting



if I could only find the mercy in him...

Mercy in you (Depeche Mode)

You know what I need
When my heart bleeds
I suffer from greed
A longing to feed
On the mercy in you
I can't conceal
The way I'm healed
The pleasure I feel
When I have to dea
lWith the mercy in you

I would do it all again
Lose my way and fall again
Just so I could call again
On the mercy in you

When here in my mind
I feel inclined
To wrongly treat you unkind
I have faith I will find
The mercy in you
I would lose my way again
Be led hopelessly astray again
Just so I could pray again
For the mercy in you

When here in my mind
I have been blind
Emotionally behind
I have faith I will find
The mercy in you

Officially Dead

that's a bit of a song by Robbie Williams called No Regrets...

I do regret a lot of things...

the thing is... I shouldn't.. it wasn't my fault in the first place.
everytime that I think of doing something... I can't do it because I know I'll regret later... and really that's an awful thing to feel...

feeling preety low and pretty lonely... I leave you the song that has inspired me to write today

No Regrets
Tell me a story
Where we all change
And we'd live our lives together
And not enstranged
I didn't lose my mind
it wasMine to give away
Couldn't stay to watch me cry
You didn't have the time
So I softly slip away...

No regrets they don't work
No regrets they only hurt

Sing me a love song
Drop me a line
Suppose it's just a point of view
But they tell me I'm doing fine
I know from the outside
We looked good for eachother
Felt things were going wrong
When you didn't like my mother

I don't want to hate but that's
All you've left me with
A bitter aftertaste and a fantasy of
How we all could live

No regrets they don't work
No regrets they only hurt
(We've been told you stay up late)
I know they're still talking
(You're far too short to carry weight)
The demons in your head
(Return the videos they're late)
If I could just stop hating you
(Goodbye)
I'd feel sorry for us instead
Remember the photographs
(insane)
The ones where we all laugh
(so lame)
We were having the time of our lives
Well thank you it was a real blast

No regrets they don't work
No regrets they only hurt

Write me a love song
Drop me a line
Suppose it's just a point of view
But they tell me I'm doing fine

Everything I wanted to be
everyTime I walked away
Everytime you told me to leave
I just wanted to stay
Every time you looked at me and
Everytime you smiledI felt so vacant you treat me like a child
I loved the way we used to laugh
I loved the way we used to smile
Often I sit down and think of you
For a while
Then it passes by me and I think of
Someone else instead
I guess the love we once had is
Officially dead

Best Wishes
Molks xxx

13

today was horrible... there is a myth with the day 13 and today i felt the curse upon me..


it really was a fucking awful day

i wont mention all the things that happened today... just that if planets have something to do with this... the the whole universe is against me... and its not fair!!!!


im not that bad...
sometimes...



well, i really do think that no one reads this blog anymore, so ill have to promote it once more...

best Wishes
Molks xxx

back

im still alive and im not happy...


at least i have returned to my city!


dunno what's going to happen

Molks xxx

Nothing

ok.. I'm so tired of not having anything to write about...


it's annoying..


I'm ok btw... been going out a lot with a friend of mine... and having a blast everytime we're together.. it's a pity it's not going to last...

just waiting for the time to come back... I miss you, people!!!


Best Wishes
Molks xxx



ps: although we're not together anymore. I send you a valentine's kiss... you're still the best thing that has ever happened to me...

False Memory

hello..
long time wothout writing... honestly, dunno what to write about...
it's a bit frustrating...
i want to talk about the book im reading, it's called false memory, by dean Koontz..

the book has the hypothesis that people can control your mind with the help of some durgs.. and something very misterious, haikus.
haiku is a literature form called poetry from the japanese culture. it has the 5-7-5 verse...
and according to the book the manchurian candidate, people can control your mind just by sayong a haiku...
terrifying..
if you have the chance of reading it.. do it!



Best Wishes
Molks xxx

Words fail me ( Alleine zu Zweit)

Alleine zu zweit
Am Ende der Wahrheit
Am Ende des Lichts
Am Ende der Liebe
Am Ende - da stehst Du
(Im Herzen wird es leerer -
ein Teil geht nun von mir
Nichts hat uberlebt
Wir haben schweigend uns schon lange getrennt
Und mit jedem Tag Wir
Wuchs die Luge unserer Liebe
Und je weiter wir den Weg zusammen gingen
Desto weiter haben wir uns voneinander entfernt

Einsam - gemeinsam
Wir haben verlernt uns neu zu suchen
Die Gewohnheit vernebelt
Die Tragheit erstickt
Der Hochmut macht trunken
Und die Nahe treibt zur Flucht

Tanz - mein Leben - tanz
Tanz mit mir
Tanz mit mir noch einmal
In den puren Rausch der nackten Liebe

Und wenn ich sie (ihn) so sehe
Wenn ich sie (ihn) erlebe
Wenn ich uns betrachte
Etwas hat uberlebt
Und wenn ich Kraft und Hoffnung fande
Wenn ich selbst noch den Glauben an uns hatte
Wenn ich sie (ihn) erreichen konnte
Sie (Ihn) noch einmal fur mich hatte
Wenn die Basis - unser Fundament
Wenn wir uns noch einmal neu entdecken wurden
Wenn sie (er) nur wollte
Ich will!

yesterday I started to write about how I couldn't write...



and it ended up with all the things I'm thinking about...

I'm very confused... dunno what I want...
I suppose it's typical... it's something you have to endure after a break up

I need to go back to my life....


Best Wishes
Molks xxx




la trasuccion no es mia... pero aca va

Solos los dos
Al final de la verdad
Al final de las luces
Al final del amor
Al final - ahí estas tú
(El corazón se vacía una parte se va de mí)
Nada ha sobrevivido
Nos hemos callado por largo tiempo
Y con cada día de ese "Nosotros"
La mentira de nuestro amor creció
Y más allá juntos hemos ido por nuestro camino
Más allá nos hemos alejado

Solos - juntos
Nos hemos olvidado como buscarnos
La costumbre nubla
La indolencia ahoga
El orgullo embriaga
Y la cercanía impulsa a huir

Danza - Mi vida - Danza
Danza conmigo
Danza conmigo otra vez
En el éxtasis puro de amor desnudo

Y si yo la veo
Si yo la vivo
Si nos contemplamos
Algo ha sobrevivido
Y si encuentro fuerza y esperanza
Si yo aún tengo fe en nosotros
Si la pudiera alcanzar
Otra vez la tendría
Si regresáramos a la base - nuestro fundamento
Si otra vez nos llegamos a descubrir
Si sólo ella quisiera...
¡Yo sí!