Sunday, November 14, 2010

The End?

what a year.. what a year..
It started so well, but the earthquake turned everything upside down..
so many things to do, so little time to worry, no time to lose.

so many things in my head, in my life and my stupid habit of weighing everything instead of just enjoying it.

Anyway, it has been a busy year.. and my life as a student will be over soon. And then, real life starts. The best of it is that I won't be here, I'll be somewhere else. new people, new city, new start... they're always good signs.

I don't want to start saying good bye, it is too soon...

Best wishes and best of luck in everything

Saturday, January 02, 2010


The clock kept ticking and there was nothing she could do to stop it or to make it go slower. She could feel something drawing nearer every second, every heartbeat felt like the last. She woke up with difficulty, her eyelids were heavy and she was thirsty in spite of not drinking at all last night.

She walked to the bathroom to take a shower, the silence of the flat was depressing, but due to the recent events, she wasn’t allowed to have a radio, stereo or any electronic device to play music. The only sound was the constant tick-tock of the clock. She showered and walked towards the kitchen to drink at least a cup of coffee before going to work, trying not to pay attention to the last latter she had received.

Tick-tock, the clock announced that she was getting late for work. The only relief was that the office was only a few streets away. She could easily walk there, she shouldn’t. She definitely shouldn’t... the time was not suitable for wandering around, although you had a specific place to go.

Whatever, she thought. She grabbed her small purse and descended the stairs, covered her hair and face with her veil and went out.

As she walked throught the familiar streets, she checked the time on her wristwatch. If she walked a bit faster than usual, she would be able to get right on time.

She wasn’t tired but her heart was racing, she felt that everytime she went out. The worst of all this situation was not knowing when. After someone receives a death sentence, the judge will set a date, but this was different. She knew her time was almost over, but she couldn’t say when it was going to happen. She kept walking and hoping she would get to the office and have another cup of coffee, even though the sun was up and the sky was was clear blue, she felt there was a cloud over her, her shadow was invisible.

A rattling noise appeared out of nowhere as she reached a corner next to her office building. The men on the truck looked at her and everything was over in a second. She stopped and looked at the one on the back of the truck with a M16. She made eye contact as he pulled the trigger and the truck sped up and was gone. She was terrified, she had written several articles about war and different attacks, but she hadn’t seen one in her life.

She fell down on her back and realised she couldn’t breathe properly. It had finally happened, everything was over now, she knew no one would come to save her. She waited on the hot dirt looking at the sky, she heard someone scream, some people running... and as background noise, the ticking f the clock, it was maybe her idea but it seemed slower, as if it was counting her last heartbeats.


She remembered the letter on the table


The last call from her mother.


She closed her eyes.

Sunday, August 30, 2009

BM Week

There have been 2 important events these last couple of days:

1) Oasis splitting up

2) Black Metal


1) Noel Gallagher announced he left Oasis after a brawl with Liam... that’s not surprising at all, because they never got along.. But it’s still shocking and I would hate to see the end of one of my favourite bands ever.

The only thing that keeps me happy is that at least saw them once.. and it was one of the best concerts I’ve even been to.

I just hope they can mend things and if they don’t... Noel as a solo artist will be great.. I don’t know if Oasis would have the same fate, as Noel is the one with the anthems...

2) I have to admit that I first knew about it was in 2002.. but at the time I couldn’t listen to it without feeling disturbed and distressed. I couldn’t stand the screaming.. I was already screaming inside and I definitely didn’t nee anyone telling me what it was like.

However, last week I read about it. A lot. I checked Burzum’s site and when I read the biography, I realised it was written by Vikernes himself. “That’s interesting” I thought.. and I read, the whole thing..

This week was definitely “Norwegian Black Metal Week”.

And I liked it... My favourite so far is Aske.. but I still have to listen to Filosofem and the ones he did while in Jail (to compare, as everyone I’ve talked to about it has said those are not like his first works).

One of the most attractive things of Black Metal for me is Satanism... I don’t believe in God nor in Satan, so it’s even funny to see people so angry at an idea and to embrace another one that is as extreme as the other... But that would be another post maybe.

So, in my personal Metal Journey, I have arrived to this... I’m not saying that I don’t listen to anything else.. I couldn’t.. I realised that today yet again... In other words, as a friend of mine called me... I’M A HYBRID.

Always have been

Always will be

And fucking proud of it!

Song for today (I won't say anything about ti because I haven't got the time to interpret it..) is by Burzum..

The Head is a Head of a Serpent
From its Nostrils Mucus Trickles...
The Ears Are those of a Basilisk
His Horns Are Twisted into three Curls

Ea, lord of the depths........

The Body is a Sun Fish, Full of Stars
The Base of His Feet Are Claws
His Name Is Sassu Wunnu
A Sea Monster. A Form of Ea

Ea, lord of the depths......

Best Wishes

Monday, August 10, 2009

Why I Listen to Britpop

Cigarrettes and Alcohol by Oasis

Is it my imagination
Or have I finally found something worth living for?
I was looking for some action
But all I found was cigarettes and alcohol
You could wait for a lifetime
To spend your days in the sunshine
You might as well do the white line
Cos when it comes on top . . .
You gotta make it happen!

Is it worth the aggravation
To find yourself a job
when there's nothing worth working for?
It's a crazy situation
But all I need are cigarettes and alcohol!
You could wait for a lifetime
To spend your days in the sunshine
You might as well do the white line
Cos when it comes on top . . .
You gotta make it happen!

I was watching a documentary about indie music and britpop... for those who didn’t know, it is related.. the indie scene of the 80 was the beginning of the britpop scene of the 90s.

I’ve always listened to this kind of music and now I remembered why... indie and britpop was all about being different from the rest and not giving a fuck about it. People who considered themselves as indie, and in my case, britpopers, knew that they didn’t belong to the “mass”, knew they were different... maybe even rejected... and they didn’t care! And that’s why I like this music.. of course, when I first started listening... but I knew I wasn’t like the rest of my classmates, to give an example... I wasn’t into the things they were into, I didn’t have the same opinion as them.. in fact..I HAD an opinion, and so on...

After realising I really didn’t want to pretend anymore that I could belong to the group by forgetting who I really was, I embraced my true self (how emo this sounds.... I know XD) so fuck’em all... I didn’t need them, I certainly do not need them now.

So... after this brief introduction... many people have asked me what happened that I’m listening to metal music now...

Britpop is part of a darker stage of my life, it was with me through very tough times and I’ll always remember it for that. According to Alex James of Blur, the music you listen when you’re 16 will always be the best.

I know I won’t stop listening to it, but now, living better days, I want to keep investigating where metal will lead me... so far it’s been an interesting journey...

I’m sure I had already posted Cigarrettes and alcohol by Oasis... it’s a song that summarises the feeling of the indie youth... but I’ll finish with an even more clear example of it... if you feel identified, whatever you listen to, welcome to the pit!

Live Forever by Oasis

Maybe I dont really want to know
How your garden grows
I just want to fly
Lately did you ever feel the pain
In the morning rain
As it soaks it to the bone

Maybe I just want to fly
I want to live I dont want to die
Maybe I just want to breath
Maybe I just dont believe
Maybe youre the same as me
We see things theyll never see
You and I are gonna live forever

Maybe I dont really want to know
How your garden grows
I just want to fly
Lately did you ever feel the pain
In the morning rain
As it soaks it to the bone

Maybe I will never be
All the things that I want to be
But now is not the time to cry
Nows the time to find out why
I think youre the same as me
We see things theyll never see
You and I are gonna live forever
Were gonna live forever
Gonna live forever

Best wishes

Friday, July 17, 2009


The Masterplan
by Oasis
Take the time to make some sense
Of what you want to say
And cast your words away upon the waves
Bring them back with Acquiesce
On a ship of hope today
And as they fall upon the shore
Tell them not to fear no more
Say it loud and sing it proud
And they...

Will dance if they want to dance
Please brother take a chance
You know they're gonna go
Which way they wanna go
All we know is that we don't know
What is gonna be
Please brother let it be
Life on the other hand won't let you understand
Why we're all part of the masterplan

I'm not saying right is wrong
It's up to us to make
The best of all things that come our way
And all the things that came have past
The answer's in the looking glass
There's four and twenty million doors
Down life's endless corridor
Say it loud and sing it proud
And they...

Will dance if they want to dance
Please brother take a chance
You know they're gonna go
Which way they wanna go
All we know is that we don't know
What is gonna be
Please brother let it be
Life on the other hand won't let you understand
Why we're all part of the masterplan

Damn it.... another semester gone... loads of new things, conflicts, ideas, people and so on... I haven't written because there's so many things to do for that fuckin' course I'm in.. but hey... I'm enjoying it.. I just wish the day had a couple more hours to do everything I want...
About music, I haven't quit metal, of course... I haven't quit my roots either.. I think the Oasis gig was an essential point where I could make a closure with that stage of my life. I will always love britpop, but I also can't forget that too many things happened while I listened to it so I can't help remembering some things I might not want to remember.
The gig itself was a gift for all old fans... they didn't play too much of the new album, but a long list of classics. I never thought I would sing I am the Walrus, Slide Away and the one I'm posting today... The Masterplan.. that was fucking awesome.. I never thought they would play it... and starting with Rock n' roll star????? amazing...
really, I felt like it was a gift and now I can check that band from my "bands I have to see before I die" list.

What else?
I'm feeling awesome as well... waiting for the challenges the future might bring, hoping for the best and just enjoying the ride... I've just met a very cool group of people... I think it's so healthy talking to new people or getting to know new people, changing the air and everything...

I'll try to post more often... I had forgotten how liberating this was...

Best Wishes

Sunday, April 26, 2009

Back From the Edge

Back from the Edge
by Bruce Dickinson

A silent river flowing black
strange attractions no turning back
present danger I recall
that pins my senses to the wall

Back from the edge where the darkness has fled
and I'm swimming in light 
and I'm falling... 
falling from the edge...
back from the edge

I fell from grace and that's a fact
still have urges I fight back
cold decisions wear me thin
kill yourself begin again

back from the fear
that you're not worth a damn
throw yourself
into light and the rush as you
spin from the edge...
back from the edge...

now and then I wonder where the faces from my childhood have gone
like father like son your bones it lives on glowing shadows

back from the edge

I have to confess that I first listened to this song last week. Ive been hearing Bruce Dickinson's solo career since a bit before the Maiden concert. and I have to say that I like it very much. I think it was a necessary change of style between the first albums and where Iron Maiden was going at the moment.
but going to what matters today, if I had known this song last year, it would have been even cooler... as someone who had a rebirth, I feel this song very close to me and I can really appreciate the lyrics. Falling from grace is never easy, but it is also necessary  for the process to be complete... 
I also want to ddedicate it to all of you who had fallen... enjoy how everything feels so mcuh better afterwards...
Keep on rockin'

Best Wishes

Monday, April 13, 2009

New Change...

Hell, I never thought I could feel like this again…

I mean, I’m usually very good with feelings... but this... this has overwhelmed me.. and I do not feel the same sadness of last time. Today, I just want to experience it over and over again... I can’t wait to go to the next concert, and the nexdt one after that one... I can’t get enough of it. I dont want to be fed up with it.. and as I heard in the documentary, this is a feeling, and it’s a global feeling. It’s so much stronger that what I feel with britpop... this is so much better than that!... I definitely think that my life was marked and til the day I day, I’ll love britpop everyday... it was the first kind of music that I liked and obsessed about...

I’m definitely not quitting,... I couldn’t, even if I wanted... and I don’t want to.. it’s just that this thing I’m  feeling it’s so much stronger than everything I’ve felt before... I’d like to focus on this just a bit,.. of course, I’ve got the Oasis concert coming soon... which would be a very good reminder of my roots.

I still don’t know about my levels of obsession... I still believe it’s in a  “healthy” level... it’s so fun to feel like this! I don’t get to worry about stupid things, I’m happy everytday, just hoping, that someday I’ll be there again, or I’ll have a chance to meet them... 

So... having said all that, the new stage of this blog will be, as it was first intended, comment on songs that rock my life... the only difference will be that there will be metal songs and not Placebo...

Best Wishes

Molks xxx