One of the first things I wrote here was “Life after Meds”. If you wonder why, it’s quite easy.
If you’ve wasted time regretting everything you do and what you don’t do, if you’ve always fought against yourself, if you’ve been your worst enemy, if you’ve thought there’s no place in this world for you, if you thought you were alone and no one could ever understand you (the list could go on forever, but I’ll stop here), then we’ve been in the same place. And for that I can say NO ONE IS ALONE. You couldn’t imagine how many people are feeling like you.
Loads of people told me I should forget everything and start living. I didn’t listen, I didn’t want to listen. How could they know what I was feeling?
I was wrong.
I was so wrong and I’m sorry.
Last year I did something stupid, I didn’t think it was stupid until a couple of weeks ago. I didn’t think enough. I didn’t want to forget because I thought it was a big part of me, and if I denied it, it would be like denying myself.
I’m sorry.
I didn’t realise I was hurting people around me.
This summer, I never thought I would be so down. I had, maybe, the worst time of my life. It was so bad that it was hard to smile, to breathe.
Suddenly, good news. My savior would arrive in the middle of March. I embraced the hope of getting it.
I finally got it, after one of the most shocking experiences of my life at university. I lost control and my mind started to fool me once again. The result: a visit to the hospital. That same afternoon, I went out with my friends. We went to the shop and it was finally there, waiting for me... Meds.
I know I had listened to them before, but this album gave me a reason to keep going, when I had lost faith in everything and everyone. I know it’s not an important reason, like finishing my studies or travelling, but I really couldn’t see further than that.
You can say whatever the fuck you want, I don’t care. Not many people can understand the relationship I’ve got with Placebo. Call it obsession, stupidity, whatever. I prefer calling it connection.
I wrote this to let it all out, because when you’ve been bitten by a poisonous snake, you need to suck the poison OUT.
And again, sorry to all the people I hurt.
I’ve got a brand new way of seeing
Now I can start living.


Meds
I was alone, falling free
Trying my best not to forget
What happened to us
What happened to me
What happened as I let it slip
I was confused by the powers that be
Forgetting names and faces
Passers by were looking at me
As if they could erase it

Baby, did you forget to take your meds?

I was alone staring over the ledge
Trying my best not to forget
All manner of joy, all manner of glee
And our one heroic pledge
How it mattered to us
How it mattered to me
And the consequences
I was confused by the birds and the bees
Forgetting if I meant it

Baby, did you forget to take your meds?

And the sex, and the drugs, and the complications...

Baby, did you forget to take your meds?

I was alone, falling free
Trying my best not to forget


First song of the album, first step of a new beggining.
I’ve got no comments for it, I think it’s terrific.

Next time I post, it’ll be the turn of Infra-red, one of my favourite songs of the album. I hope to have time to analyse it and to write something interesting.
Best Wishes
Molks xxx

P.S.: A la gente que no entiende inglés... lo siento mucho pero... CAGARON. No creo que me de la lata de empezar a traducir todo lo que escribo, porque al traducir hay cosas que no quedan igual. Lamentablemente para ustedes, pienso más en inglés que en español, lo que conlleva a que escriba en inglés. Si realmente quieren saber lo que escribo, mándenme un mail o dejen un post y puede que traduzca algo y este blog empiece a ser enteramente bilingüe. Porque realmente no tengo idea si alguien se mete a este blog loser.
P.S.2: Sé que estudio traducción, pero este blog es para expresarme, no para empezar a ejercer.
P.S.3: Alguien me preguntó si las tres x tenían alguna relación con sexo. Si quieren saber... A ESTUDIAR! No les pienso decir, porque pasé 8 años antes de saber que cresta significaban.