ok.. I'm so tired of not having anything to write about...
it's annoying..
I'm ok btw... been going out a lot with a friend of mine... and having a blast everytime we're together.. it's a pity it's not going to last...
just waiting for the time to come back... I miss you, people!!!
Best Wishes
Molks xxx
ps: although we're not together anymore. I send you a valentine's kiss... you're still the best thing that has ever happened to me...
Bienvenidos a la nueva edición de este blog... Más música que analizar y disfrutar en la fría luz de la mañana... Best Wishes! xxx
Thursday, February 15, 2007
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
False Memory
hello..
long time wothout writing... honestly, dunno what to write about...
it's a bit frustrating...
i want to talk about the book im reading, it's called false memory, by dean Koontz..
the book has the hypothesis that people can control your mind with the help of some durgs.. and something very misterious, haikus.
haiku is a literature form called poetry from the japanese culture. it has the 5-7-5 verse...
and according to the book the manchurian candidate, people can control your mind just by sayong a haiku...
terrifying..
if you have the chance of reading it.. do it!
Best Wishes
Molks xxx
long time wothout writing... honestly, dunno what to write about...
it's a bit frustrating...
i want to talk about the book im reading, it's called false memory, by dean Koontz..
the book has the hypothesis that people can control your mind with the help of some durgs.. and something very misterious, haikus.
haiku is a literature form called poetry from the japanese culture. it has the 5-7-5 verse...
and according to the book the manchurian candidate, people can control your mind just by sayong a haiku...
terrifying..
if you have the chance of reading it.. do it!
Best Wishes
Molks xxx
Tuesday, January 09, 2007
Words fail me ( Alleine zu Zweit)
Alleine zu zweit
Am Ende der Wahrheit
Am Ende des Lichts
Am Ende der Liebe
Am Ende - da stehst Du
(Im Herzen wird es leerer -
ein Teil geht nun von mir
Nichts hat uberlebt
Wir haben schweigend uns schon lange getrennt
Und mit jedem Tag Wir
Wuchs die Luge unserer Liebe
Und je weiter wir den Weg zusammen gingen
Desto weiter haben wir uns voneinander entfernt
Einsam - gemeinsam
Wir haben verlernt uns neu zu suchen
Die Gewohnheit vernebelt
Die Tragheit erstickt
Der Hochmut macht trunken
Und die Nahe treibt zur Flucht
Tanz - mein Leben - tanz
Tanz mit mir
Tanz mit mir noch einmal
In den puren Rausch der nackten Liebe
Und wenn ich sie (ihn) so sehe
Wenn ich sie (ihn) erlebe
Wenn ich uns betrachte
Etwas hat uberlebt
Und wenn ich Kraft und Hoffnung fande
Wenn ich selbst noch den Glauben an uns hatte
Wenn ich sie (ihn) erreichen konnte
Sie (Ihn) noch einmal fur mich hatte
Wenn die Basis - unser Fundament
Wenn wir uns noch einmal neu entdecken wurden
Wenn sie (er) nur wollte
Ich will!
yesterday I started to write about how I couldn't write...
and it ended up with all the things I'm thinking about...
I'm very confused... dunno what I want...
I suppose it's typical... it's something you have to endure after a break up
I need to go back to my life....
Best Wishes
Molks xxx
la trasuccion no es mia... pero aca va
Solos los dos
Al final de la verdad
Al final de las luces
Al final del amor
Al final - ahí estas tú
(El corazón se vacía una parte se va de mí)
Nada ha sobrevivido
Nos hemos callado por largo tiempo
Y con cada día de ese "Nosotros"
La mentira de nuestro amor creció
Y más allá juntos hemos ido por nuestro camino
Más allá nos hemos alejado
Solos - juntos
Nos hemos olvidado como buscarnos
La costumbre nubla
La indolencia ahoga
El orgullo embriaga
Y la cercanía impulsa a huir
Danza - Mi vida - Danza
Danza conmigo
Danza conmigo otra vez
En el éxtasis puro de amor desnudo
Y si yo la veo
Si yo la vivo
Si nos contemplamos
Algo ha sobrevivido
Y si encuentro fuerza y esperanza
Si yo aún tengo fe en nosotros
Si la pudiera alcanzar
Otra vez la tendría
Si regresáramos a la base - nuestro fundamento
Si otra vez nos llegamos a descubrir
Si sólo ella quisiera...
¡Yo sí!
Friday, December 29, 2006
New Year...
what's this thing about new year??
I hate all the people that starts celebrating and proposing things to do in the new year... WTF!!!
you can start over every day!!
anyway... I'm breaking the routine of playing with the computer till dawn... I'm celebrating with my urban family.. i hope to have fun...
to all of you... my dear readers... have a great time and as always, my best wishes for all of you...
Love, Molks xxx
I hate all the people that starts celebrating and proposing things to do in the new year... WTF!!!
you can start over every day!!
anyway... I'm breaking the routine of playing with the computer till dawn... I'm celebrating with my urban family.. i hope to have fun...
to all of you... my dear readers... have a great time and as always, my best wishes for all of you...
Love, Molks xxx
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
A Week After...
well..
a week has passed.. ive had a lot of time to think... and i dont always like to think... basically because i get really depressed...
he pensado tanto que ya no se que mas pensar... me he cuestionado tanto que ya no se que es cierto y que conjeturas ha llegado a hacer mi cabeza de mierda...
i didnt mean for this to happen in the first place... when we started to go out, i was determined to say goodbye to him... soemething happened and i couldnt..
now i think that my biggest mistake was loving him too much... more than he deserved maybe...
and now i think that if i am the way i used to be, everything would be ok again... that's the best idea till now...
i accept comments of all kinds...
and I leave you my cartoon which is very cool.. a friend of mine madeit, you can see her drawings in www.fotolog.com/devil_katy

take care and best wishes
Molks xxx
a week has passed.. ive had a lot of time to think... and i dont always like to think... basically because i get really depressed...
he pensado tanto que ya no se que mas pensar... me he cuestionado tanto que ya no se que es cierto y que conjeturas ha llegado a hacer mi cabeza de mierda...
i didnt mean for this to happen in the first place... when we started to go out, i was determined to say goodbye to him... soemething happened and i couldnt..
now i think that my biggest mistake was loving him too much... more than he deserved maybe...
and now i think that if i am the way i used to be, everything would be ok again... that's the best idea till now...
i accept comments of all kinds...
and I leave you my cartoon which is very cool.. a friend of mine madeit, you can see her drawings in www.fotolog.com/devil_katy

take care and best wishes
Molks xxx
Thursday, December 14, 2006
No Distance Left to Run
No Distance Left To Run
It's over
you don't need to tell me
I hope you're with someone
who makes you feel save in your sleeping tonight
I won't kill myself trying to stay in your life
I've got no distance left to run
When you see me,
please,
turn your back and walk away
I don't wanna see you
'cause I know the dreams that you keep
that's where we meet
when you're coming down
think of me here
I've got no distance left to run
-whoo whoo whoo-
It's over
I knew it would end this way
I hope you're with someone
who makes you feel
that this life, is a life
Who settles down,
stays around,
spends more time with you,
I've got no distance left to run
I think the song explains it all.... nothing else to do... nothing else to say....
my thoughts are so confusing right now... I don't want to wake up tomorrow...
please.... my girls from santiago call me... Im in Linares and I really need to talk to you... any or both of you would be even better
Molks xxx
It's over
you don't need to tell me
I hope you're with someone
who makes you feel save in your sleeping tonight
I won't kill myself trying to stay in your life
I've got no distance left to run
When you see me,
please,
turn your back and walk away
I don't wanna see you
'cause I know the dreams that you keep
that's where we meet
when you're coming down
think of me here
I've got no distance left to run
-whoo whoo whoo-
It's over
I knew it would end this way
I hope you're with someone
who makes you feel
that this life, is a life
Who settles down,
stays around,
spends more time with you,
I've got no distance left to run
I think the song explains it all.... nothing else to do... nothing else to say....
my thoughts are so confusing right now... I don't want to wake up tomorrow...
please.... my girls from santiago call me... Im in Linares and I really need to talk to you... any or both of you would be even better
Molks xxx
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
Holiday plus In your Room
In your room
Where time stands still
Or moves at your will
Will you let the morning come soon
Or will you leave me lying here
In your favourite darkness
Your favourite half-light
Your favourite consciousness
Your favourite slave
In your room
Where souls disappear
Only you exist here
Will you lead me to your armchair
Or leave me lying here
Your favourite innocence
Your favourite prize
Your favourite smile
Your favourite slave
I'm hanging on your words
Living on your breath
Feeling with your skin
Will I always be here
In your room
Your burning eyes
Cause flames to arise
Will you let the fire die down soon
Or will I always be here
Your favourite passion
Your favourite game
Your favourite mirror
Your favourite slave
I'm hanging on your words
Living on your breath
Feeling with your skin
Will I always be here
Will I always be here
the song's by Depeche Mode, form the album Songs of Faith and Devotion. nothing else to say... I think it0s very explicit... it's my darkest desire....
ok...
once again Im back in the shithole...
desperate bacuse it's too fucking hot and and Im already bored. i miss loads of people and most of all, I miss concepcion.
nothing has happened as I planned...
this is gonna be a looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong summer.... if I survive...
best wishes
Molks xxx
Where time stands still
Or moves at your will
Will you let the morning come soon
Or will you leave me lying here
In your favourite darkness
Your favourite half-light
Your favourite consciousness
Your favourite slave
In your room
Where souls disappear
Only you exist here
Will you lead me to your armchair
Or leave me lying here
Your favourite innocence
Your favourite prize
Your favourite smile
Your favourite slave
I'm hanging on your words
Living on your breath
Feeling with your skin
Will I always be here
In your room
Your burning eyes
Cause flames to arise
Will you let the fire die down soon
Or will I always be here
Your favourite passion
Your favourite game
Your favourite mirror
Your favourite slave
I'm hanging on your words
Living on your breath
Feeling with your skin
Will I always be here
Will I always be here
the song's by Depeche Mode, form the album Songs of Faith and Devotion. nothing else to say... I think it0s very explicit... it's my darkest desire....
ok...
once again Im back in the shithole...
desperate bacuse it's too fucking hot and and Im already bored. i miss loads of people and most of all, I miss concepcion.
nothing has happened as I planned...
this is gonna be a looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong summer.... if I survive...
best wishes
Molks xxx
Friday, December 08, 2006
FCE
This is the greatest and best song in the world. . . tribute.
Long time ago me and my brother Kyle here,...
we was hitchhikin' down a long and lonesome road.
All of a sudden,
there shined a shiny demon...
in the middle...
of the road.
And he said:
"Play the best song in the world,
or I'll eat your souls (wisper:Souls)."
Well me and Kyle,... we looked at each other,
and we each said...
"Okay."
And we played the first thing that came to our heads,
Just so happened to be,
The Best Song in the World,
it was The Best Song in the World.
Look into my eyes and it's easy to see
One and one make two,
two and one make three,
It was destiny.
Once every hundred-thousand years or so,
When the sun doth shine and the moon doth glow
and the grass doth grow oooh
Needless to say,
the beast was stunned.
Whip-crack went his whippy tail,
And the beast was done.
He asked us:
"(snort) BE you angels?"
And we said,
"Nay.
We are but men
rock on!!!!"
Ahhh, ahhh, ahhh-ah-ah-ah-ah-ahh,
Ohhh, whoah, ah-whoah-oh!
This is not The Greatest Song in the World, No No!
This is just a tribute.
Couldn't remember The Greatest Song in the World, yeah,
No!
This is a tribute, oh,
To The Greatest Song in the World,
All right!
It was The Greatest Song in the World,
All right!
And it was the best mother fuckin' song,
The Greatest Song in the world!
Allllllright!
'Ti Tuga digga tu Gi Friba fligugibu Uh Fligugigbu Uh Di Ei Friba Du Gi Fligu fligugigugi Flilibili Ah
(Bow) (Bow) (Bow) (Ooh) (Bow) (Bi)
Fligu wene mamamana Lucifer!
(Mene) (LUCIFER)!
(guitar solo)
And the peculiar thing is this my friends:
the song we sang on that fateful night it didn't actually sound
anything like this song!
This is just a tribute!
You gotta believe it!
And I wish you were there!
Just a matter of opinion.
Ah, fuck!
Good God, God lovin' ,
So surprised to find you can't stop me.(scat)
O hallelujah I'm found! Rich motherfucker compadre aaaaah!
All right!
All right!
OK... im tired and I love this song because its stupid... and I have deleted the post I had... basically, Im taking FCE tomorrow and Im nervous... and I wanted to go somewehew and I couldnt because of the exam and Im sad... so...
take care and Best Wishes
Molks xxx
Long time ago me and my brother Kyle here,...
we was hitchhikin' down a long and lonesome road.
All of a sudden,
there shined a shiny demon...
in the middle...
of the road.
And he said:
"Play the best song in the world,
or I'll eat your souls (wisper:Souls)."
Well me and Kyle,... we looked at each other,
and we each said...
"Okay."
And we played the first thing that came to our heads,
Just so happened to be,
The Best Song in the World,
it was The Best Song in the World.
Look into my eyes and it's easy to see
One and one make two,
two and one make three,
It was destiny.
Once every hundred-thousand years or so,
When the sun doth shine and the moon doth glow
and the grass doth grow oooh
Needless to say,
the beast was stunned.
Whip-crack went his whippy tail,
And the beast was done.
He asked us:
"(snort) BE you angels?"
And we said,
"Nay.
We are but men
rock on!!!!"
Ahhh, ahhh, ahhh-ah-ah-ah-ah-ahh,
Ohhh, whoah, ah-whoah-oh!
This is not The Greatest Song in the World, No No!
This is just a tribute.
Couldn't remember The Greatest Song in the World, yeah,
No!
This is a tribute, oh,
To The Greatest Song in the World,
All right!
It was The Greatest Song in the World,
All right!
And it was the best mother fuckin' song,
The Greatest Song in the world!
Allllllright!
'Ti Tuga digga tu Gi Friba fligugibu Uh Fligugigbu Uh Di Ei Friba Du Gi Fligu fligugigugi Flilibili Ah
(Bow) (Bow) (Bow) (Ooh) (Bow) (Bi)
Fligu wene mamamana Lucifer!
(Mene) (LUCIFER)!
(guitar solo)
And the peculiar thing is this my friends:
the song we sang on that fateful night it didn't actually sound
anything like this song!
This is just a tribute!
You gotta believe it!
And I wish you were there!
Just a matter of opinion.
Ah, fuck!
Good God, God lovin' ,
So surprised to find you can't stop me.(scat)
O hallelujah I'm found! Rich motherfucker compadre aaaaah!
All right!
All right!
OK... im tired and I love this song because its stupid... and I have deleted the post I had... basically, Im taking FCE tomorrow and Im nervous... and I wanted to go somewehew and I couldnt because of the exam and Im sad... so...
take care and Best Wishes
Molks xxx
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
I would tell you about the things they put me through
The pain I've been subjected to
But the Lord himself would blush
The countless feasts laid at my feet
Forbidden fruits for me to eat
But I think your pulse would start to rush
Now I'm not looking for absolution
Forgiveness for the things I do
But before you come to any conclusions
Try walking in my shoes
Try walking in my shoes
You'll stumble in my footsteps
Keep the same appointments I kept
If you try walking in my shoes
If you try walking in my shoes
Morality would frown upon
Decency look down upon
The scapegoat fate's made of me
But I promise now, my judge and jurors
My intentions couldn't have been purer
My case is easy to see
I'm not looking for a clearer conscience
Peace of mind after what I've been through
And before we talk of any repentance
Try walking in my shoes
Try walking in my shoes
You'll stumble in my footsteps
Keep the same appointments I kept
If you try walking in my shoes
If you try walking in my shoes
Try walking in my shoes
Now I'm not looking for absolution
Forgiveness for the things I do
But before you come to any conclusions
Try walking in my shoes
Try walking in my shoes
You'll stumble in my footsteps
Keep the same appointments I kept
If you try walking in my shoes
You'll stumble in my footsteps
Keep the same appointments I kept
If you try walking in my shoes
Try walking in my shoes
If you try walking in my shoes
Try walking in my shoes
endless week!!!! and its just tuesday....
I love this song because it totally represents what I do and what generally, people say about me.. you what? I dont give a fuck!
im ok... didnt get the mark I wanted in FCE but im the best of my class anyway...
I really need holidays..
Best Wishes
Molks xxx
The pain I've been subjected to
But the Lord himself would blush
The countless feasts laid at my feet
Forbidden fruits for me to eat
But I think your pulse would start to rush
Now I'm not looking for absolution
Forgiveness for the things I do
But before you come to any conclusions
Try walking in my shoes
Try walking in my shoes
You'll stumble in my footsteps
Keep the same appointments I kept
If you try walking in my shoes
If you try walking in my shoes
Morality would frown upon
Decency look down upon
The scapegoat fate's made of me
But I promise now, my judge and jurors
My intentions couldn't have been purer
My case is easy to see
I'm not looking for a clearer conscience
Peace of mind after what I've been through
And before we talk of any repentance
Try walking in my shoes
Try walking in my shoes
You'll stumble in my footsteps
Keep the same appointments I kept
If you try walking in my shoes
If you try walking in my shoes
Try walking in my shoes
Now I'm not looking for absolution
Forgiveness for the things I do
But before you come to any conclusions
Try walking in my shoes
Try walking in my shoes
You'll stumble in my footsteps
Keep the same appointments I kept
If you try walking in my shoes
You'll stumble in my footsteps
Keep the same appointments I kept
If you try walking in my shoes
Try walking in my shoes
If you try walking in my shoes
Try walking in my shoes
endless week!!!! and its just tuesday....
I love this song because it totally represents what I do and what generally, people say about me.. you what? I dont give a fuck!
im ok... didnt get the mark I wanted in FCE but im the best of my class anyway...
I really need holidays..
Best Wishes
Molks xxx
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
Today
So, I’ve been going out with this guy I met two years ago. It has been strange in a very particular way, because if we count the days that we have been actually together, it’s less than a week. But we’ve been together for 2 months… and officially a couple 2 weeks ago…
I always said that I didn’t like relationships, that I didn’t like the feeling of “belonging” to someone, that I liked being free, and most of all, that I preferred having an affaire than someone who would end up breaking my heart once again.
I was too scared.
I was and I’m still scared of the unknown.
Am I silly?
No, I’m just a coward.
My best friend asked me if I really liked him… that maybe it was an obsession. I have to say that I wondered that myself, and the final answers are the following:
♥ If I don’t like him, why I get these butterflies everytime I see him, and even when we talk by the phone?
♥ Why I’ve never been able to get rid of him, no matter how much I wanted to forget about him?
♥ Why do I feel so good when I’m with him?
Conclusion: I like him. And with my friends as witnesses, I’ve liked him since the first time we kissed. What scares me the most is that I think that I’m falling in love with him, which is annoying, because I’ve never felt this way before.
It’s strange… why now? And why him? Maybe people could say that I’ve could have chosen better, someone my age or something… but I really don’t care… right now I just want to be by his side, hold him tight, and kiss him goodnight… stroke his hair until he falls asleep, kiss his forehead and rest my head on his chest and fall asleep listening to his breathing….
Is that Love?
I always said that I didn’t like relationships, that I didn’t like the feeling of “belonging” to someone, that I liked being free, and most of all, that I preferred having an affaire than someone who would end up breaking my heart once again.
I was too scared.
I was and I’m still scared of the unknown.
Am I silly?
No, I’m just a coward.
My best friend asked me if I really liked him… that maybe it was an obsession. I have to say that I wondered that myself, and the final answers are the following:
♥ If I don’t like him, why I get these butterflies everytime I see him, and even when we talk by the phone?
♥ Why I’ve never been able to get rid of him, no matter how much I wanted to forget about him?
♥ Why do I feel so good when I’m with him?
Conclusion: I like him. And with my friends as witnesses, I’ve liked him since the first time we kissed. What scares me the most is that I think that I’m falling in love with him, which is annoying, because I’ve never felt this way before.
It’s strange… why now? And why him? Maybe people could say that I’ve could have chosen better, someone my age or something… but I really don’t care… right now I just want to be by his side, hold him tight, and kiss him goodnight… stroke his hair until he falls asleep, kiss his forehead and rest my head on his chest and fall asleep listening to his breathing….
Is that Love?
Ok,I think I’m Fucked
Best Wishes
Molks xxx
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
Atlantic, by Keane
"Atlantic"
I hope all my days will be lit by your face
I hope all the years will hold tight our promises
I don't want to be old and sleep alone
An empty house is not a home
I don't want to be old and feel afraid
I don't want to be old and sleep alone
An empty house is not a home
I don't want to be old and feel afraid
And if I need anything at all
I need a place that's hidden in the deep
Where lonely angels sing you to your sleep
Though all the world is broken
I need a place where I can make my bed
A lover's lap where I can lay my head
'Cause now the room is spinning
The day's beginning
that’s all I need right now.,.. just a moment of peace in this chaos... this song’s by Keane by the way...
I’m too stressed to think about something interesting to say... listen to this song, it’s really beautiful...
I don’t know if you feel the same, but there are bands who are perfect for certain period of your life. For example, everytime I like someone, I listen to keane and I feel more likely to fall in love with that person. It happened to me when I got Hopes and Fears, and when I got Under the Iron Sea I felt the same... it’s weird... but then again, music it’s such a wonderful thing, that makes you feel a great variety of things...
I really can’t live without music...
And I can’t live without him...
Best wishes, and leave a fucking post, ok??
Molks xxx
I hope all my days will be lit by your face
I hope all the years will hold tight our promises
I don't want to be old and sleep alone
An empty house is not a home
I don't want to be old and feel afraid
I don't want to be old and sleep alone
An empty house is not a home
I don't want to be old and feel afraid
And if I need anything at all
I need a place that's hidden in the deep
Where lonely angels sing you to your sleep
Though all the world is broken
I need a place where I can make my bed
A lover's lap where I can lay my head
'Cause now the room is spinning
The day's beginning
that’s all I need right now.,.. just a moment of peace in this chaos... this song’s by Keane by the way...
I’m too stressed to think about something interesting to say... listen to this song, it’s really beautiful...
I don’t know if you feel the same, but there are bands who are perfect for certain period of your life. For example, everytime I like someone, I listen to keane and I feel more likely to fall in love with that person. It happened to me when I got Hopes and Fears, and when I got Under the Iron Sea I felt the same... it’s weird... but then again, music it’s such a wonderful thing, that makes you feel a great variety of things...
I really can’t live without music...
And I can’t live without him...
Best wishes, and leave a fucking post, ok??
Molks xxx
Thursday, November 09, 2006
How Could anybody say they know how I feel?
How Could anybody say they know how I feel?
She told me she loved me
which means she must be insane
I’ve had my face dragged
in fifteen miles of shit
and I do not / and I do not
and I do not like it
so how can anybody say
they know how I feel?
the only one around here who is me
is me
They said they respect me
which means
their judgment is crazy
I’ve had my face dragged in fifteen miles of shit
and I do not / and I do not
and I do not like it
so how can anybody say
they know how I feel?
when they are they
and only I am I
He says he wants to befriend me
which means he can’t possibly know me
the voices of the real and the imagined cry:“the future is passing you by
the future is passing you by.”
so how can anybody possibly think they
know how I feel?
everybody look / see pain /walk away
and as for you in your uniform
your smelly uniform
and so you think you can be rude to me
because you wear a uniform
a smelly uniform
and so you think you can be rude to me
but even I / as sick as I am
I would never be you even I / as sick as I am
I would never be youeven I / sick and depraved
a traveler to the grave I would never be you
This is a song by Morrissey, from the Album You Are the Quarry..
Why I chose it? Right now, I don’t know...
It’s a question I have asked myself in uncountable times, after hearing people say “I know how you feel” it’s very irritating, but when you’re having a hard time, it’s difficult to understand and realise that soemone is having a harder time tat you... and so on.
I like this song since the first time I listened to it, which I have to admit that it was very recently. My friend Tamara downloaded the album and I stole it...
About the prob of the previous post.. I’m better now. I feel a mixture of giving the fight and accept the facts that I’ve been lazy.. but seriously, I was really demotivated this year with german. I seriously thought of dropping it. Until the second semester, suddenly I thought that I could do it, I’ve got the ability... I’m just lazy. And all this semester’s events were like the push I needed to go on... and here I am... with a good level of the language (not excellent, but I can pass) and with the regret of missing too much classes and the high possibility of losing the whole fucking year.
That’s the truth.
And that’s all for this week...
I’m taking FCE next week... so I don’t know if I’ll be able to post something... but anyway... I’ll try.
Best Wishes
Molks xxx
She told me she loved me
which means she must be insane
I’ve had my face dragged
in fifteen miles of shit
and I do not / and I do not
and I do not like it
so how can anybody say
they know how I feel?
the only one around here who is me
is me
They said they respect me
which means
their judgment is crazy
I’ve had my face dragged in fifteen miles of shit
and I do not / and I do not
and I do not like it
so how can anybody say
they know how I feel?
when they are they
and only I am I
He says he wants to befriend me
which means he can’t possibly know me
the voices of the real and the imagined cry:“the future is passing you by
the future is passing you by.”
so how can anybody possibly think they
know how I feel?
everybody look / see pain /walk away
and as for you in your uniform
your smelly uniform
and so you think you can be rude to me
because you wear a uniform
a smelly uniform
and so you think you can be rude to me
but even I / as sick as I am
I would never be you even I / as sick as I am
I would never be youeven I / sick and depraved
a traveler to the grave I would never be you
This is a song by Morrissey, from the Album You Are the Quarry..
Why I chose it? Right now, I don’t know...
It’s a question I have asked myself in uncountable times, after hearing people say “I know how you feel” it’s very irritating, but when you’re having a hard time, it’s difficult to understand and realise that soemone is having a harder time tat you... and so on.
I like this song since the first time I listened to it, which I have to admit that it was very recently. My friend Tamara downloaded the album and I stole it...
About the prob of the previous post.. I’m better now. I feel a mixture of giving the fight and accept the facts that I’ve been lazy.. but seriously, I was really demotivated this year with german. I seriously thought of dropping it. Until the second semester, suddenly I thought that I could do it, I’ve got the ability... I’m just lazy. And all this semester’s events were like the push I needed to go on... and here I am... with a good level of the language (not excellent, but I can pass) and with the regret of missing too much classes and the high possibility of losing the whole fucking year.
That’s the truth.
And that’s all for this week...
I’m taking FCE next week... so I don’t know if I’ll be able to post something... but anyway... I’ll try.
Best Wishes
Molks xxx
Sunday, November 05, 2006
NCR
ni siquiera tengo ganas de escribir en ingles....
es grave...
la sentencia ha dicho lo siguiente...
NCR en aleman (no cumple requisito)
perdi un puto año...
voy a salir de esa carrera del orto cuando tenga 60 años!!
como mierda fui tan pava??¡¡
eso...
desolacion total...
y tampoco tengo cancion...
igual a nadie le importa..
asi que chao no mas
sus condolencias a los posts por favor
Best Wishes
Molks xxxx
es grave...
la sentencia ha dicho lo siguiente...
NCR en aleman (no cumple requisito)
perdi un puto año...
voy a salir de esa carrera del orto cuando tenga 60 años!!
como mierda fui tan pava??¡¡
eso...
desolacion total...
y tampoco tengo cancion...
igual a nadie le importa..
asi que chao no mas
sus condolencias a los posts por favor
Best Wishes
Molks xxxx
Thursday, October 26, 2006
I QUIT!!!!!!!
I'm so fucking tired!!!!!!!!!!!!
and stressed as well...
I've noticed I've got like 4 weeks of classes and 100000000 things to do, 4 BIG exams (two FCE's, ZD and Final Exam in german literature)
thousands of papers, articles, stories, tests... this is going to be another hell month....
an to make it worst... no one posts here!! I havent forgotten this blog, even though I've got a new one...
take care and best wishes... I hope to have at least one post... since in the last song there wasn't any...
Molks xxx
and stressed as well...
I've noticed I've got like 4 weeks of classes and 100000000 things to do, 4 BIG exams (two FCE's, ZD and Final Exam in german literature)
thousands of papers, articles, stories, tests... this is going to be another hell month....
an to make it worst... no one posts here!! I havent forgotten this blog, even though I've got a new one...
take care and best wishes... I hope to have at least one post... since in the last song there wasn't any...
Molks xxx
Thursday, October 19, 2006
You're The Reason I'm Leaving
Some granite wall
Numbs our bones, numbs our all
As we sit on skinny hands
Nothing to say, nothing at all
I don't know you and I don't want to
You're so awkward just like me
But I don't care
You're the reason I'm leaving
I'd no idea that in four years
I'd be hanging from a beam
behind the door of number ten
Singing fare thee well
I am leaving
Yes I leave it all to you
You're the reason I'm leaving
As we ride along under an optimistic sun
The radio sings that Everybody song by rem
And Here I Am Fighting Fighting
Yes I'm Fighting not to cry
And that's another reason
Why I oughtta hate you like I do
Like I do
I'm the reason you're leaving
Things have gotten a bit better... I’m still nervous about my presentation tomorrow....
I really like this song because it’s a bit of a hate song but without being too rude, and that’s is to be politically correct... sometimes it’s necessary not being rude the whole time like I do...
I SERIOUSLY don’t know what to write... my stock of songs to write about is empty right now..
But for all those who were worried, don’t be... I’m ok... JUST SHIT SCARED ABOUT TOMORROW!
Best Wishes
Molks xxx
Numbs our bones, numbs our all
As we sit on skinny hands
Nothing to say, nothing at all
I don't know you and I don't want to
You're so awkward just like me
But I don't care
You're the reason I'm leaving
I'd no idea that in four years
I'd be hanging from a beam
behind the door of number ten
Singing fare thee well
I am leaving
Yes I leave it all to you
You're the reason I'm leaving
As we ride along under an optimistic sun
The radio sings that Everybody song by rem
And Here I Am Fighting Fighting
Yes I'm Fighting not to cry
And that's another reason
Why I oughtta hate you like I do
Like I do
I'm the reason you're leaving
Things have gotten a bit better... I’m still nervous about my presentation tomorrow....
I really like this song because it’s a bit of a hate song but without being too rude, and that’s is to be politically correct... sometimes it’s necessary not being rude the whole time like I do...
I SERIOUSLY don’t know what to write... my stock of songs to write about is empty right now..
But for all those who were worried, don’t be... I’m ok... JUST SHIT SCARED ABOUT TOMORROW!
Best Wishes
Molks xxx
Thursday, October 12, 2006
Drown With Me
Drown With Me
So you have been of use
And you have been abused
You know you look pale today
Your lipstick has gone astray
You sold out and lost your looks
You gave away all your books
(You should drown with me)
Your coil has been wound up tight
Unwind it with me tonight
(You should drown with me)
Tyre tracks Fresh on the ground
Where she will be found
Held under the water
Resting there in a stream
View from the cold water
Buried in green
Orange filter sky
Your drowning in family there
When will you come up for air
(You should drown with me)
Don't feel you let 'em down
Cos they have already drowned
(You should drown with me)
I wanted to write this song since a long time... I get a lot of memories with it... it makes me think of a really good friend of mine; because porcupine tree is his favourite band.
It’s the first time I read the lyrics... what do I think it means?? It’s about letting people down, and about how you shouldn’t care about it..
It doesn’t matter if you’re letting someone down as long as you feel you’re doing the right thing. It’s a bit harsh.. but how many times you have given up on something you wanted, just because other people told you not to do it? If I had followed other people’s opinion.. I wouldn’t be studying what I’m studying and I wouldn’t be with Him... you have to drown all that kind of people somehow.... just listen to your mind, and it will tell you exactly what to do...
I’m not very well for all those who want to know... I’m very stressed and worried about 1000 things to do... I didn’t do very well in 2 exams... tomorrow I’ve got another one... and he hasn’t texted me very much... he doesn’t remember that I exist I think..
I’ll try to write something happier next week... but that’ll depend on a lot of things...
Best wishes,Molks xxx
So you have been of use
And you have been abused
You know you look pale today
Your lipstick has gone astray
You sold out and lost your looks
You gave away all your books
(You should drown with me)
Your coil has been wound up tight
Unwind it with me tonight
(You should drown with me)
Tyre tracks Fresh on the ground
Where she will be found
Held under the water
Resting there in a stream
View from the cold water
Buried in green
Orange filter sky
Your drowning in family there
When will you come up for air
(You should drown with me)
Don't feel you let 'em down
Cos they have already drowned
(You should drown with me)
I wanted to write this song since a long time... I get a lot of memories with it... it makes me think of a really good friend of mine; because porcupine tree is his favourite band.
It’s the first time I read the lyrics... what do I think it means?? It’s about letting people down, and about how you shouldn’t care about it..
It doesn’t matter if you’re letting someone down as long as you feel you’re doing the right thing. It’s a bit harsh.. but how many times you have given up on something you wanted, just because other people told you not to do it? If I had followed other people’s opinion.. I wouldn’t be studying what I’m studying and I wouldn’t be with Him... you have to drown all that kind of people somehow.... just listen to your mind, and it will tell you exactly what to do...
I’m not very well for all those who want to know... I’m very stressed and worried about 1000 things to do... I didn’t do very well in 2 exams... tomorrow I’ve got another one... and he hasn’t texted me very much... he doesn’t remember that I exist I think..
I’ll try to write something happier next week... but that’ll depend on a lot of things...
Best wishes,Molks xxx
Thursday, October 05, 2006
Pure Morning...
Pure morning
A friend in need's a friend indeed
A friend with weed is better
A friend with breast and all the rest
A friend who's dressed in leather
A friend in need's a friend indeed
A friend who'll tease is better
Our thoughts compressed
Which makes us blessed
And makes for stormy weather
A friend in need's a friend indeed
My Japanese is better
And when she's pressed she will undress
And then she's boxing clever
A friend in need's a friend indeed
A friend who bleeds is better
My friend confessed she passed the test
And we will never sever
Day's dawning, skins crawling
Day's dawning, skins crawling
Day's dawning, skins crawling
Pure morning
Pure morning
Pure morning
A friend in need's a friend indeed
A friend who'll tease is better
Our thoughts compressed
Which makes us blessed
And makes for stormy weather
A friend in need's a friend indeed
A friend who bleeds is better
My friend confessed she passed the test
And we will never sever
Day's dawning, skins crawling
Day's dawning, skins crawling
Day's dawning, skins crawling
Pure morning
Pure morning
Pure morning
A friend in need's a friend indeed
My Japanese is better
And when she's pressed she will undress
And then she's boxing clever
A friend in need's a friend indeed
A friend with weed is better
A friend with breast and all the rest
A friend who's dressed in leather
I really didn’t know what song I was going to talk about... coz the one I wanted, I don’t have the lyrics...
So.. Pure Morning... song from 1998, from the Without You I’m Nothing album by Placebo (for a change)
My greatest friend dedicated this song to me in 2004... and even though I fell a bit tired of it... it means a lot.. and it’s like our compromise of friendship... and in spite of the rest of my friends ( whom I love too, of course) she’s like my most important... there’s a moment in your life in which you have a brother or sister... and I have to say that she’s my sister.. she’s been my sister for a long time and i hope she keeps being my sister till the day I die. Pali, this one is for you...
These 3 weeks have been really tough, I’ve been feeling a bit lost, tired and all those things... but I’m going home, I’m going to see my family, my friend and last but not least... I’m going to see HIM...
Best Wishes
Molks xxx
A friend in need's a friend indeed
A friend with weed is better
A friend with breast and all the rest
A friend who's dressed in leather
A friend in need's a friend indeed
A friend who'll tease is better
Our thoughts compressed
Which makes us blessed
And makes for stormy weather
A friend in need's a friend indeed
My Japanese is better
And when she's pressed she will undress
And then she's boxing clever
A friend in need's a friend indeed
A friend who bleeds is better
My friend confessed she passed the test
And we will never sever
Day's dawning, skins crawling
Day's dawning, skins crawling
Day's dawning, skins crawling
Pure morning
Pure morning
Pure morning
A friend in need's a friend indeed
A friend who'll tease is better
Our thoughts compressed
Which makes us blessed
And makes for stormy weather
A friend in need's a friend indeed
A friend who bleeds is better
My friend confessed she passed the test
And we will never sever
Day's dawning, skins crawling
Day's dawning, skins crawling
Day's dawning, skins crawling
Pure morning
Pure morning
Pure morning
A friend in need's a friend indeed
My Japanese is better
And when she's pressed she will undress
And then she's boxing clever
A friend in need's a friend indeed
A friend with weed is better
A friend with breast and all the rest
A friend who's dressed in leather
I really didn’t know what song I was going to talk about... coz the one I wanted, I don’t have the lyrics...
So.. Pure Morning... song from 1998, from the Without You I’m Nothing album by Placebo (for a change)
My greatest friend dedicated this song to me in 2004... and even though I fell a bit tired of it... it means a lot.. and it’s like our compromise of friendship... and in spite of the rest of my friends ( whom I love too, of course) she’s like my most important... there’s a moment in your life in which you have a brother or sister... and I have to say that she’s my sister.. she’s been my sister for a long time and i hope she keeps being my sister till the day I die. Pali, this one is for you...
These 3 weeks have been really tough, I’ve been feeling a bit lost, tired and all those things... but I’m going home, I’m going to see my family, my friend and last but not least... I’m going to see HIM...
Best Wishes
Molks xxx
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
haemoglobin
Haemoglobin
I was hanging from a tree
Unaccustomed to such violence
Jesus looking down on me
I'm prepared for one big silence
How'd I ever end up here
Must be through some lack of kindness
And it seemed to dawn on me
Haemoglobin is the key
Haemoglobin is the key
To a healthy heartbeat
Haemoglobin is the key
To a healthy heartbeat
At the time they cut me free
I was brimming with defiance
Doctors looking down on me
Breaking every law of science
How'd I ever end up here
A latent strain of color blindness
Then it seemed to dawn on me
Haemoglobin is the key
Haemoglobin is the key
To a healthy heartbeat
Haemoglobin is the key
To a healthy heartbeat
Haemoglobin is the key
To a healthy heartbeat
Haemoglobin is the key
To a healthy heartbeat
Now my feet don't touch the ground
Now my feet don't touch the ground, go
Now my feet don't touch the ground
Now my feet don't touch the ground
As they drag me to my feet
I was filled with incoherence
Theories of conspiracy
The whole world wants my disappearance
I'll go fighting nail and teeth
You've never seen such perseverance
Gonna make you scared of me
'Cause haemoglobin is the key
Haemoglobin is the key
To a healthy heartbeat
Haemoglobin is the key
To a healthy heart beat
Haemoglobin is the key
To a healthy heart beat
Haemoglobin is the key
To a healthy heart beat
Now my feet don't touch the ground
Now my feet don't touch the ground, go
Now my feet don't touch the ground
Now my feet don't touch the ground, go
Now my feet don't touch the ground
Now my feet don't touch the ground, go
Now my feet don't touch the ground
Now my feet don't touch the ground, go.
Ok... back in hell..
I simply love this song... it has such strength, power, willing of living.. all the things I’m lacking right now...
I’m so tired, dissapointed, sick of everything and almost everyone.
I want to believe that everything will change someday... but I’m not so sure of it... it’s like, everytime a part of your life gets better, the other falls down espectacularly to pieces. Maybe I have to sacrifice that thing to get the other... but it seems like I can’t have both... I said I was going to fight... but I just can’t find the tools right now... I’m tired... so tired... I wish not to wake up tomorrow, I don’t care, I’m done with all this...
Dunno what else to say...
Best Wishes for you all
Molks xxx
I was hanging from a tree
Unaccustomed to such violence
Jesus looking down on me
I'm prepared for one big silence
How'd I ever end up here
Must be through some lack of kindness
And it seemed to dawn on me
Haemoglobin is the key
Haemoglobin is the key
To a healthy heartbeat
Haemoglobin is the key
To a healthy heartbeat
At the time they cut me free
I was brimming with defiance
Doctors looking down on me
Breaking every law of science
How'd I ever end up here
A latent strain of color blindness
Then it seemed to dawn on me
Haemoglobin is the key
Haemoglobin is the key
To a healthy heartbeat
Haemoglobin is the key
To a healthy heartbeat
Haemoglobin is the key
To a healthy heartbeat
Haemoglobin is the key
To a healthy heartbeat
Now my feet don't touch the ground
Now my feet don't touch the ground, go
Now my feet don't touch the ground
Now my feet don't touch the ground
As they drag me to my feet
I was filled with incoherence
Theories of conspiracy
The whole world wants my disappearance
I'll go fighting nail and teeth
You've never seen such perseverance
Gonna make you scared of me
'Cause haemoglobin is the key
Haemoglobin is the key
To a healthy heartbeat
Haemoglobin is the key
To a healthy heart beat
Haemoglobin is the key
To a healthy heart beat
Haemoglobin is the key
To a healthy heart beat
Now my feet don't touch the ground
Now my feet don't touch the ground, go
Now my feet don't touch the ground
Now my feet don't touch the ground, go
Now my feet don't touch the ground
Now my feet don't touch the ground, go
Now my feet don't touch the ground
Now my feet don't touch the ground, go.
Ok... back in hell..
I simply love this song... it has such strength, power, willing of living.. all the things I’m lacking right now...
I’m so tired, dissapointed, sick of everything and almost everyone.
I want to believe that everything will change someday... but I’m not so sure of it... it’s like, everytime a part of your life gets better, the other falls down espectacularly to pieces. Maybe I have to sacrifice that thing to get the other... but it seems like I can’t have both... I said I was going to fight... but I just can’t find the tools right now... I’m tired... so tired... I wish not to wake up tomorrow, I don’t care, I’m done with all this...
Dunno what else to say...
Best Wishes for you all
Molks xxx
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
You don't care about us

If it's a bad day,
you try to suffocate.
Another memory, scarred.
If it's a bad case,
then you accelerate,
you're in the getaway car
.You don't care about us oh oh
You don't care about us oh oh
You don't care about us oh oh
You don't care about us.
If it's a bad case,
you're on the rampage
.Another memory, scarred
.You're at the wrong place,
you're on the back page,
You're in the getaway car
.You don't care about us oh oh
You don't care about us oh oh
You don't care about us oh oh
You don't care about us.
It's your age,
It's my rage
It's your age,
It's my rage
It's your age,
It's my rage
You're too complicated,
we should separate it.
You're just confiscated,
you're exasperating.
This degeneration,
mental masturbation.
Think I'll leave it all behind
Save this bleeding heart of mine
It's a matter of trust X4
Because
You don't care about us X4
It's your age,
It's my rage
It's your age,
It's my rage
I really like this song.. dunno why I’m posting it today.. maybe because I’ve got an age problem... which has brought me more problems... that’s why it’s my rage.
And he doesn’t care about us either.. so why I keep on this?... I seriously don’t know... the most sensible thing to do is leaving it all behind and save this bleeding heart of mine. I hate feeling like this. sometimes I hate him. I hate the way he can change my mood... I said before that I was going to get rid of him... but til now... I haven’t. And it’s not because I don’t want to, it’s because I can’t. Well.. this weekend I might see him.. I mean I have to.. he’s got some of my cds and I need them... I hope I can tell him the way I feel, and stop all this....
Have a nice looooooong weekend.
Best Wishes
Molks xxx
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
Outsiders
We've seen some change
But we're still outsiders
If everybody's here
Then hell knows
We ride alone
I've seen some years
But you're still my Caesar
With everything I feel
I feel you've already been here
The only difference is all I see is now all that I've seen
It's bright on the outside
The bright love the dark side
I know it's obvious
But sometimes
You just have to say it
So you don't feel so weak
About being such a freak
Or alone
In seventeen years
Will you still be Camille
Lee Miller, Gala or whatever
You know what I mean, yeah
Love'll die
Lovers fade
But you still remain there
Squeezing in your fingers
What it means for me to be
The only difference is what might be is now what might have been
When you saw me sleeping
You thought I was dreaming of you
I didn't tell you
That the only dream
Is Valium for me
The only difference is that
What Might Be Is NOW
Good day to you all… this is another song by FF… it’s called outsiders... the tune is awesome, I love the sound of the drums.
There’s one phrase of the song that captivated me when I first listened to it. “Love will die, Lovers fade, but you still remain there” meaning no matter how many people you love, someone will always be there and for me those are my friends. As I’ve written before my friends are the most important thing for me…
I’d love to write more, but I’ve got phonetics homework to do, study for my German test, and write a story about Vanity Fair… has anyone seen that movie? It’s very good…
Well, that’s all… take care… dunno what song is coming next…
Best Wishes
Molks xxx
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