Bienvenidos a la nueva edición de este blog... Más música que analizar y disfrutar en la fría luz de la mañana... Best Wishes! xxx
Sunday, November 14, 2010
The End?
Saturday, January 02, 2010
Clocks
The clock kept ticking and there was nothing she could do to stop it or to make it go slower. She could feel something drawing nearer every second, every heartbeat felt like the last. She woke up with difficulty, her eyelids were heavy and she was thirsty in spite of not drinking at all last night.
She walked to the bathroom to take a shower, the silence of the flat was depressing, but due to the recent events, she wasn’t allowed to have a radio, stereo or any electronic device to play music. The only sound was the constant tick-tock of the clock. She showered and walked towards the kitchen to drink at least a cup of coffee before going to work, trying not to pay attention to the last latter she had received.
Tick-tock, the clock announced that she was getting late for work. The only relief was that the office was only a few streets away. She could easily walk there, she shouldn’t. She definitely shouldn’t... the time was not suitable for wandering around, although you had a specific place to go.
Whatever, she thought. She grabbed her small purse and descended the stairs, covered her hair and face with her veil and went out.
As she walked throught the familiar streets, she checked the time on her wristwatch. If she walked a bit faster than usual, she would be able to get right on time.
She wasn’t tired but her heart was racing, she felt that everytime she went out. The worst of all this situation was not knowing when. After someone receives a death sentence, the judge will set a date, but this was different. She knew her time was almost over, but she couldn’t say when it was going to happen. She kept walking and hoping she would get to the office and have another cup of coffee, even though the sun was up and the sky was was clear blue, she felt there was a cloud over her, her shadow was invisible.
A rattling noise appeared out of nowhere as she reached a corner next to her office building. The men on the truck looked at her and everything was over in a second. She stopped and looked at the one on the back of the truck with a M16. She made eye contact as he pulled the trigger and the truck sped up and was gone. She was terrified, she had written several articles about war and different attacks, but she hadn’t seen one in her life.
She fell down on her back and realised she couldn’t breathe properly. It had finally happened, everything was over now, she knew no one would come to save her. She waited on the hot dirt looking at the sky, she heard someone scream, some people running... and as background noise, the ticking f the clock, it was maybe her idea but it seemed slower, as if it was counting her last heartbeats.
Tick.
She remembered the letter on the table
Tock.
The last call from her mother.
Tick.
She closed her eyes.
Sunday, August 30, 2009
BM Week
There have been 2 important events these last couple of days:
1) Oasis splitting up
2) Black Metal
1) Noel Gallagher announced he left Oasis after a brawl with Liam... that’s not surprising at all, because they never got along.. But it’s still shocking and I would hate to see the end of one of my favourite bands ever.
The only thing that keeps me happy is that at least saw them once.. and it was one of the best concerts I’ve even been to.
I just hope they can mend things and if they don’t... Noel as a solo artist will be great.. I don’t know if Oasis would have the same fate, as Noel is the one with the anthems...
2) I have to admit that I first knew about it was in 2002.. but at the time I couldn’t listen to it without feeling disturbed and distressed. I couldn’t stand the screaming.. I was already screaming inside and I definitely didn’t nee anyone telling me what it was like.
However, last week I read about it. A lot. I checked Burzum’s site and when I read the biography, I realised it was written by Vikernes himself. “That’s interesting” I thought.. and I read, the whole thing..
This week was definitely “Norwegian Black Metal Week”.
And I liked it... My favourite so far is Aske.. but I still have to listen to Filosofem and the ones he did while in Jail (to compare, as everyone I’ve talked to about it has said those are not like his first works).
One of the most attractive things of Black Metal for me is Satanism... I don’t believe in God nor in Satan, so it’s even funny to see people so angry at an idea and to embrace another one that is as extreme as the other... But that would be another post maybe.
So, in my personal Metal Journey, I have arrived to this... I’m not saying that I don’t listen to anything else.. I couldn’t.. I realised that today yet again... In other words, as a friend of mine called me... I’M A HYBRID.
Always have been
Always will be
And fucking proud of it!
From its Nostrils Mucus Trickles...
The Ears Are those of a Basilisk
His Horns Are Twisted into three Curls
Ea, lord of the depths........
The Body is a Sun Fish, Full of Stars
The Base of His Feet Are Claws
His Name Is Sassu Wunnu
A Sea Monster. A Form of Ea
Ea, lord of the depths......
Best Wishes
Monday, August 10, 2009
Why I Listen to Britpop
Cigarrettes and Alcohol by Oasis
Is it my imagination
Or have I finally found something worth living for?
I was looking for some action
But all I found was cigarettes and alcohol
You could wait for a lifetime
To spend your days in the sunshine
You might as well do the white line
Cos when it comes on top . . .
You gotta make it happen!
Is it worth the aggravation
To find yourself a job
when there's nothing worth working for?
It's a crazy situation
But all I need are cigarettes and alcohol!
You could wait for a lifetime
To spend your days in the sunshine
You might as well do the white line
Cos when it comes on top . . .
You gotta make it happen!
I was watching a documentary about indie music and britpop... for those who didn’t know, it is related.. the indie scene of the 80 was the beginning of the britpop scene of the 90s.
I’ve always listened to this kind of music and now I remembered why... indie and britpop was all about being different from the rest and not giving a fuck about it. People who considered themselves as indie, and in my case, britpopers, knew that they didn’t belong to the “mass”, knew they were different... maybe even rejected... and they didn’t care! And that’s why I like this music.. of course, when I first started listening... but I knew I wasn’t like the rest of my classmates, to give an example... I wasn’t into the things they were into, I didn’t have the same opinion as them.. in fact..I HAD an opinion, and so on...
After realising I really didn’t want to pretend anymore that I could belong to the group by forgetting who I really was, I embraced my true self (how emo this sounds.... I know XD) so fuck’em all... I didn’t need them, I certainly do not need them now.
So... after this brief introduction... many people have asked me what happened that I’m listening to metal music now...
Britpop is part of a darker stage of my life, it was with me through very tough times and I’ll always remember it for that. According to Alex James of Blur, the music you listen when you’re 16 will always be the best.
I know I won’t stop listening to it, but now, living better days, I want to keep investigating where metal will lead me... so far it’s been an interesting journey...
I’m sure I had already posted Cigarrettes and alcohol by Oasis... it’s a song that summarises the feeling of the indie youth... but I’ll finish with an even more clear example of it... if you feel identified, whatever you listen to, welcome to the pit!
Live Forever by Oasis
Maybe I dont really want to know
How your garden grows
I just want to fly
Lately did you ever feel the pain
In the morning rain
As it soaks it to the bone
Maybe I just want to fly
I want to live I dont want to die
Maybe I just want to breath
Maybe I just dont believe
Maybe youre the same as me
We see things theyll never see
You and I are gonna live forever
Maybe I dont really want to know
How your garden grows
I just want to fly
Lately did you ever feel the pain
In the morning rain
As it soaks it to the bone
Maybe I will never be
All the things that I want to be
But now is not the time to cry
Nows the time to find out why
I think youre the same as me
We see things theyll never see
You and I are gonna live forever
Were gonna live forever
Gonna live forever
Best wishes
Friday, July 17, 2009
Summary
Sunday, April 26, 2009
Back From the Edge
Monday, April 13, 2009
New Change...
Hell, I never thought I could feel like this again…
I mean, I’m usually very good with feelings... but this... this has overwhelmed me.. and I do not feel the same sadness of last time. Today, I just want to experience it over and over again... I can’t wait to go to the next concert, and the nexdt one after that one... I can’t get enough of it. I dont want to be fed up with it.. and as I heard in the documentary, this is a feeling, and it’s a global feeling. It’s so much stronger that what I feel with britpop... this is so much better than that!... I definitely think that my life was marked and til the day I day, I’ll love britpop everyday... it was the first kind of music that I liked and obsessed about...
I’m definitely not quitting,... I couldn’t, even if I wanted... and I don’t want to.. it’s just that this thing I’m feeling it’s so much stronger than everything I’ve felt before... I’d like to focus on this just a bit,.. of course, I’ve got the Oasis concert coming soon... which would be a very good reminder of my roots.
I still don’t know about my levels of obsession... I still believe it’s in a “healthy” level... it’s so fun to feel like this! I don’t get to worry about stupid things, I’m happy everytday, just hoping, that someday I’ll be there again, or I’ll have a chance to meet them...
So... having said all that, the new stage of this blog will be, as it was first intended, comment on songs that rock my life... the only difference will be that there will be metal songs and not Placebo...
Best Wishes
Molks xxx
Saturday, June 14, 2008
Things have changed / story of a song
I want to share the story of a song...
Nearly 3 months ago, a girl was sitting on her bed. She was worried about someone who was on a trip, and an amazing trip, mark you.
She couldn't stop thinking about the favour she had asked him the night before, when he left her home, she was worried that something could happen to him in the course.
She thought of texting him about it, but a call from him made her change her mind. Nothing bad could happen.
the hours passed by and she got even more nervous, as she found out that she could share that part of the trip with him, mentally, spiritually.She got even more excited at the thought of how he was feeling at the moment
The moment came. The sound of people screaming in the radio made her heart fill itself with emotion. She would have loved to go to, but she had had problems... anyway she could listen to it in the radio... it definitely not the same.. but it was safer that way.
She laid back, with her bottle of water in one hand and her teddy bear in the other... She didn't know all the songs, but she loved them anyway. She liked that band before she had met him and he had taught her everything about it.
Songs sounded loud, so she decided to use her headphones, so she wouldn't bother any of the people in the house.
Emotion made her heart feel too little for all that she was feeling, she felt that it would explode any minute, and the only way to prevent this was screaming... She shivered with every beat, reef, voice of the singer and the voice of the crowd, thinking that one of that voices could be his.
A walk to the kitchen to get more water could be a good way of relaxing.. but she missed there an important song. she didn't know about it, and she regretted later having left for 3 minutes.
Suddenly it started. This was it. The song she had been waiting. She didn't know if he would remember to call her; if he hadn't she wouldn't have minded. The emotion of the moment was too intense. Her telepohe rang. on the screen, his name. She answered and the emotion was beyond she could have ever imagined it. She listened hard to the crowd and the band, and at the chorus she sang at the top of her voice. she could hear him singing as well. then they screamed at the telephone, hoping that the other one would listen, and then it was over.
she couldn't stop smiling.
the rest of the concert was calmer. still clutching her teddy bear and singing what she knew, she tought that it had been an amazing concert, and she couldnt wait to tell him about it.
When coming out of the stadium, he called again and told her what he had screamed, she told him the same... it was a pity that they didn't listen to each other, but the fact the they had both said the same was worth it. the only worry was that he catch the bus at time. The bus that left 2 minutes to midnight... weird coincidences.
They saw each other next day, commented about everything that had happened and slept together in each other's arms.
I thought that I wouldn't be able to listen to that song again... But I have to say that I only have good memories of it and that band. And I thank him for calling me that night and share that special moment with me.
Best wishes
Molks xxx
Wednesday, December 05, 2007
Bloody Sunday
here I am, 3rd Year and no courses failed.
thats the greatest success of my life.
Ive just watched "bloody sunday", an Irish movie about the attack to a pacific march by the british groups in Londonderry.
I have to say I didnt imagine the attack as it was described in the film. I thought it was less terrible.
People running, scared. people being shot at, when they were doing nothing illegal. that's wirklich unfair. I know Im always on the british side, yet Ive always thought that was an unnecessary measrure to "keep the peace".
you cant make peace ny shooting innocent people...
and this conflict keeps on and on..
If youve gotthe chance of watching the movie (mihgt be a bit long) it is worthy.
Ill leave you with the song inspired by that day Sunday, Bloody Sunday by U2
I can't believe the news today
I can't close my eyes and make it go away.
How long, how long must we sing this song?
How long, how long?
'Cos tonight
We can be as one, tonight.
Broken bottles under children's feet
Bodies strewn across the dead-end street.
But I won't heed the battle call
It puts my back up, puts my back up against the wall.
Sunday, bloody Sunday.
Sunday, bloody Sunday.
Sunday, bloody Sunday.
Sunday, bloody Sunday.
Oh, let's go.
And the battle's just begun
There's many lost, but tell me who has won?
The trenches dug within our hearts
And mothers, children, brothers, sisters
Torn apart.
Sunday, bloody Sunday.
Sunday, bloody Sunday.
How long, how long must we sing this song?
How long, how long?
'Cos tonight
We can be as one, tonight.
Sunday, bloody Sunday.
Sunday, bloody Sunday.
Wipe the tears from your eyes
Wipe your tears away.
I'll wipe your tears away.
I'll wipe your tears away.
I'll wipe your bloodshot eyes.
Sunday, bloody Sunday.
Sunday, bloody Sunday.
And it's true we are immune
When fact is fiction and TV reality.
And today the millions cry
We eat and drink while tomorrow they die.
The real battle just begun
To claim the victory Jesus won
On...
Sunday, bloody Sunday
Sunday, bloody Sunday..
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
...
la verdad es que han pasado muchas cosas y por culpa del tiempo, u, tareas que corregir y paja en general no he escrito nada.
y tanta paja tengo que me da lata escribrir en ingles.
Y wea que han pasado cosas... y pasaran mas todavia.
no quiero hacer muchas cosas que estoy obligada a hacer para mantener esta existencia vacia y pajera que llevo.
de verdad me pregunto de que sirve si las cosas no cambian y nunca lo haran.
lata
mejor que venga el cataclismo luego
ya no hago nada
ya no se me ocurre nada, me bloquee
y de verdad no quiero hacer nada porque nada va a cambiar
aunque SI estoy feliz con mi pololo, siento que el hecho que el resto de mi vida este como la mierda a veces es mas fuerte que mi felicidad de estar con alguien tan genial.
NO se si sera el ultimo posteo que dejo aca... cualquier cosa el fotolog esta un poco mas activo.
y pensar que era muy optimista cuando empece el blog...
Best Wishes
Molks xxx
Saturday, October 06, 2007
Der Morgen Danach
Doch niemand sieht Dich so wie ich
Denn in dem Schatten deines Lichts
Ganz weit dort hinten sitze ich
Ich brauche Dich - Ich brauch dein Licht
Denn aus dem Schatten kann ich nicht
Du siehst mich nicht - du kennst mich nicht
Doch aus der Ferne lieb ich Dich
Ich achte Dich - verehre Dich
Ich hoff auf Dich - begehre Dich
Erfühle Dich - erlebe Dich
begleite Dich - erhebe Dich
Kann nicht mehr leben ohne Dich
Dies ist der Morgen danach
Und meine Seele liegt brach
Dies ist der Morgen danach
Ein neuer Tag beginnt
Und meine Zeit verrint
Dieses alles schreib ich dir
Und mehr noch brächt ich zu Papier
Könnt ich in Worten alles Leiden
Meiner Liebe dir beschreiben
Nicht die Botschaft zu beklagen
Sollen diese Zeilen tragen
Nur - Ich liebe Dich - doch sagen
Heute Nacht erhälst du dies
Ich bete daß du dieses liest
Im Morgengrauen erwart ich Dich
Ich warte auf dein strahlend Licht
Ich träume daß du mich bald siehst
Du morgen in den Schatten kniest
Und mich zu dir ins Lichte ziehst
Dies ist der Morgen danach
Und meine Seele liegt brach
Dies ist der Morgen danach
Ein neuer Tag beginnt
Und meine Zeit verrint
long time without writing...
this song's by Lacrimosa and its beautiful...
there's nothing better than waking up next to someone you love... the song's got nothing to do with it, but I remembered...
tomorrow's the concert..if anyone's going.. enjoy it and call me!!!!
Best wishes
Molks xxx
Saturday, September 08, 2007
sorry..
I haven't had time for anything...
for the same reason I won't post a song today...
for all those who care about me..
I'm happy....
and I'm no longer a spinster..
lol
people... see you in linares for the 18..
I'll tell you everything when we have our aquelarre... DDR included!!!!!
Best wishes
Molks xxx
Friday, August 17, 2007
An einem Morgen
SAH´N WIR DES MORGENS TIEFSTEN SCHEIN
WILD UND WILLIG, WARM UND BILLIG
BITTE LAß MICH, WECK MICH NICHT
WIR FRAßEN UNS AM REST DES MONDES SATT UND FREI
VON STIRN ZU STIRN VOM BESTEN BIS ZUM HEILIGSTEN
WIR FRAßEN UNS AM REST DES MONDES SATT UND FREI
HINTER DIESEN WÄNDEN ZU MORGENS TIEFSTEM SCHEIN
SCHAU HER, DU KANNST UNS BUCHEN
HIER SIND ALLE GLEICH
NIMM DEN REST DES KUCHENS
UND LAß UNS SEIN, SEIN, SEIN
No time to translate it into English or Spanish.
It tells a story of a morning, wehre you wake up next to someone special... and you ask not to wake up because you don't want it to end. that's the general idea..
I love it.. it's one of the thing I like when Im dating someone... and also, its not necessary to have a boyfriend... you can wake up next to a friend and feel the same. although i dont feel lonely, id love to spend more time with some people i dont have the chance of visiting or spending more time with eachother..
right..
ok..
what's going on?
no fucking idea..
i dont care much either...
just waiting for my time to come. I dont want to make it myself coz it won't work anyway..
what's the meaning of success?
what's the meaning of everything?
what's death?
does it really matter?
I don't think so.. as long as you dont fear it..
is there a tomorrow?
Best Wishes
Molks xxx
Monday, August 06, 2007
Leaving So Soon? by Keane
Ah, ah ah, ah ah, ah!
You must think I'm a fool
So prosaic and awkward and all
D'you think you've got me down?
D'you think I've never been out of this town?
Do I seem too eager to please to you now?
You don't know me at all
I can't turn it on, turn it off like you now
I'm not like you now
Now you're here
I bet you're wishing you could disappear
I'm trying to be kind
I get the feeling you're just killing time
You look down on me
Don't you look down on me now
You don't know me at all
A slap in the face
In the face for you now
Just might do now
You're leaving so soon
Never had a chance to bloom
But you were so quick
To change your tune
Don't look back
If I'm a weight around your neck
Cos if you don't need me
I don't need you
Ah, ah ah, ah ah, ah!
Ah, ah ah, ah ah, ah!
Leaving so soon, soon
Leaving, leaving so, soon
You're leaving so soon
Never had a chance to bloom
But you were so quick
To change your tune
Don't look back
If I'm a weight around your neck
Cos if you don't need me
Then I don't need you
Ah, ah ah, ah ah, ah!
This is an awesome song by Keane, form the album “Under the Iron Sea”.
I chose this song because it is the way I feel towards some people.
I like the ironic tone of it, though the melody of it is sort of happy and maybe even cheesy.
I don’t have much to say.. I’m a bit tired and I’ve been very busy, despite I’m just on my second week after the winter break.
Best Wishes
Molks xxx
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
holiday
I'm here in the city I hate...
but today I remember the only thing I like in here...
the bloody mountains!
there were all snowy and beautiful....
that's the only good thing opf this place...
wanna play pool with my people.-... but there's no one here...
I've been writing a lot...
thinking a lot
analysing a lot...
I want to go back.
thanks to all the people who have sent me their support... lol
love you all
best wishes
Molks xxx
I dont have a song today... sorry
Thursday, July 12, 2007
No Volveré a Caer by Phono
Se apagó el encanto dulce que sentía por ti.
Tú no haces nada que me haga sentir bien…
Me queda ser infiel.
Y siento que mañana será mejor,
Quiero entender que existe alguien más,
Como recuperar los años que te deje,
No volveré a caer, No volveré a caer.
La monotonía juega con mi voluntad .
Se apagó la adrenalina que sentía por ti.
Tu no haces nada que me haga sentir bien.
Mi sueño esta al revés.
Y siento que mañana será mejor,
Quiero entender que existe alguien más,
Como recuperar los años que te deje,
No volveré a caer, No volveré a caer.
Y siento que mañana será mejor,
Quiero entender que existe alguien más,
Como recuperar los años que te deje,
No volveré a caer, No volveré a caer.
It´s a promise to myself.... hope to keep it...
keine Lust of going on holidays..
I'll work on my projects this weekend, but if anyone wants to come and pay a visit... you're welcome.. I'll be here by myself
Best Wishes
Molks xxx
Monday, July 09, 2007
Siehst du mich im Licht? by Lacrimosa... WITH TRANSLATION
Die Meinen wild verzerrt
Der Orgasmus der Verwundbarkeit
Die Seele schreit nach mehr
Nur herein in meine kleine Welt
Und friss dich durch bis zum Schafott
Zerbeisse jede Zelle meiner kalten rohen Haut
Und du bleibst leer
Hast zerstört
Nur fur Sekunden diesen Rausch erlebt
Und du bleibst leer
Hast gelogen und betrogen
Und bei allem dich nur selbst projeziert
Zwei Augen im Kopf
Und die Ohren links und rechts
Und so blind wie ein toter Fisch
Du kannst mich nicht verstehen
Nein - du wirst mich nie verstehen
Nur reden kannst du über mich
Dir ist es scheissegal ob es wahr ist oder nicht
Denn am Ende trifft es niemals dich
Du bist die letzte Instanz
Du bist die Pegel der Bilanz
Du bist der Mörder jeder Wahrheitssubstanz
Im kurzen Augenblick
Des blinden Übermuts
Verspruhst du deine Weisheit
Deine Falschheit - Deine Sucht
Und du bist dir nichts bewusst
Deine Dummheit ist die Lust
Die deinen Verstand langsam ausradiert
Und du bleibst leerHast zerstört
Nur Für Sekunden diesen einen kurzen Rausch erlebt
Und du brauchst mehr
Du musst gelügen und betrügen
Und bei allem -Siehst du mich im Licht?!?
Zwei Augen im Kopf
Und die Ohren links und rechts
Und so taub wie ein toter Fisch
Du kannst mich nicht verstehen
Nein - du wirst mich nie verstehen
Nur schreiben kannst du über mich
Dir ist es scheissegal ob es wahr ist oder nicht
Denn am Ende trifft es niemals dich
Du bist die letzte Instanz
Du bist der Pegel der Bilanz
Du bist der Mörder jeder Wahrheitssubstanz
Nicht im Gesprach liegt deine Kraft
Im Monolog suchst du die Opfer
Deren Dasein dich am Leben halt
Zwei Augen im Kopf
Und das Herz am falschen Platz
Du bleibst das Echo unsrer Zeit
Du bist das Sprachrohr weit und breit
Nicht viele Worte mocht ich machen
Denn du machst ja schon genug
Wahrscheinlich wirst du wieder lachen
Solange trinke ich dein Blut
Zwei Augen im Kopf
Und das Herz am falschen Platz
Und so taub wie ein toter Fisch
Du kannst mich nicht verstehen
Nein - du wirst mich nicht verstehen
Du wirst mich nicht verstehen!
CAN YOU SEE ME IN THE LIGHT?
Your lips pressed into the flesh
Mine wildly contorted
In the orgasm of vulnerability
The soul is crying out for more
Come along into my little world
And eat your way through to the scaffold
Chew each cell of my cold raw skin to pieces
And you remain empty
You have destroyed
Only experienced this ecstasy for seconds
And you remain empty
You lied and deceived
And only projected yourself in all this
Two eyes in your head
And the ears left and right
And as blind as a dead fish
You cannot understand me
No - you will never understand me
You can only talk about me
You don't give a shit if it's true or not
Because it never affects you in the end
You are the last authority
You are the gauge of the balance
You are the murderer of each essence of truth
In a short moment
Of blind arrogance
You sense your wisdom
Your falseness - your obsession
And you are not aware that
Your stupidity is the desire
Which is slowing erasing your mind
And you remain empty
You have destroyed
Only experienced this ecstasy for seconds
And you need more
You must lie and deceive
And in all of this -Can you see me in the light?
Two eyes in your head
And the ears left and right
And as blind as a dead fish
You cannot understand me
No - you will never understand me
You can only write about me
You don't give a shit if it's true or not
Because it never affects you in the end
You are the last authority
You are the gauge of the balance
You are the murderer of each essence of truth
Your strength doesn't lie in talking
You look for your victims in monologues
Whose beings keep you alive
Two eyes in your head
And your heart in the wrong place
You are the echo of our time
You are the mouthpiece far and wide
I don't want to make any words
Since it is you who makes enough already
You will probably laugh again
In the meantime I'll drink your blood
Two eyes in your head
And your heart in the wrong place
And as deaf as a dead fish
You cannot understand me
No - you will never understand me
You will never understand me!
OK!! for all those who don't understand German... the English translation. I didn't do it so it's not my responsability...
i love this song.. it's so us... that's why I like it perhaps..
dunno what to say... I DON'T WANNA LEAVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm gonna miss so many people.. special people that only here I can find... special people I've met in these months... VERY special people that have given me a new perspective of life, an opinion... that have made ask about everything.. taht have made me think and work... people I've shared very special moments with... I'm gonna miss them so much!!! at least I have my projects...
best wishes
Molks xxx
Tuesday, July 03, 2007
You Know You're Right, by Nirvana
I will never promise to
I will never follow you
I will never bother you
Never speak a word again
I will crawl away for good
I will move away from here
You wont be afraid of fear
No thought was put in to this
I always knew it would come to this
Things have never been so swell
I have never failed to feel
Pain [3x]
You Know your Right [3x]
I'm so warm and calm inside
I no longer have to hide
Let’s talk about someone else
Steaming soup against her mouth
Nothing really bothers her
She just wants to love herself
I will move away from here
You wont be afraid of fear
No thought was put into this
I always knew to come like this
Things have never been so swell
I have never failed to feel
Pain [5x]
You know Your Right [17x]
Pain [1x]
Right.. it came to this...
I have to.
I need to..
I must to...
It wasn’t enough to have broken up, it wasn’t enough to play with me, it wasn’t enough to feel used by you. No. You had to go further and, besides all the things mentioned above, you had to disappoint me. Not once, not twice... but nore time than I can remember and stand.
How could you?
Did you mean all the things you told me? I seriously can’t understand you. And you can’t understand me. it doesn't matter though... because I will do exactly as the lyrics of this song say. I will never bother you..
and it doesn't matter because you know you're right. you always were. But I'm right now. I don't think you'll ever come back to me because when I say that you don't care, I really meant it. You only come to me when you need something..
I hope this is the last time you do this. I’m not there for you anymore, as you weren’t when I needed you. I can’t believe that I went from loving you so much to this feeling, mixture of despise and pain.
Then again, you’re the only one who can make me feel such strong things.
I would like to say it’s over. But I’m almost sure that sooner or later, I’ll be back in your arms... even if I don’t want to.
Even if it’s just for a short moment of pleasure and lust, just as we like it.
I have to be strong and not to fall again.
I have to.
I need to..
I must to...
Best Wishes
Molks xxx
Saturday, June 30, 2007
Sachliche Romance
und man darf sagen: sie kannten sich gut,
kam ihre Liebe plötzlich abhanden.
Wie andern Leuten ein Stock oder Hut.
Sie waren traurig, betrugen sich heiter,
versuchten Küsse, als ob nichts sei,
und sahen sich an und wußten nicht weiter.
Da weinte sie schließlich. Und er stand dabei.
Vom Fenster aus konnte man Schiffen winken,
Er sagte es wäre schon Viertel nach Vier
und Zeit, irgendwo Kaffee zu trinken.
Nebenan übte ein Mensch Klavier.
Sie gingen ins kleinste Cafe am Ort
und rührten in ihren Tassen.
Am Abend saßen sie immer noch dort.
Sie saßen allein, und sie sprachen kein Wort
und konnten es einfach nicht fassen.
(Erich Kästner)
ok.. To change the lyrics..
this is a poençm about a breakup.. about a relationship that is now over... in spite that they knew each other since a long time. What a paradox..
to know a person and to feel that you dont know her/him at all..
ok... i was thinking about writing something very cool.. but the plan failed...
looking forward to next week... its bound to be better than the last one...
Best wishes
Molks xxx
Sunday, June 24, 2007
Days Before You Came
Freezing cold and empty
Towns that change their name
And a horn of plenty
Days before you came
Counting breaths inside me
Even crack cocaine
Couldn't start to hide me
Won't you join me now
Baby's looking torn and frayed
Join the masquerade
Join the masquerade
Won't you join me now
Baby's looking to get laid
Join the masquerade
Join the masquerade
Days before you came
It always seemed enticing
to be naked and profane
there is no denying
Days before you came
Thunderbolts and lightning
Each day a brand new vein
Each tourniquet colliding
Didn't want you anyway [x4]
Won't you join me now
Baby's looking torn and frayed
Join the masquerade
Join the masquerade
Won't you join me now
Baby's looking to get laid
Join the masquerade
Join the masquerade
Days before you came [repeat]
I'm sure I've posted this song before... but in order of the recent events I have to do it again.
I need to say that I didn¡t want him... I'm so sick of him, of everything.. Sometimes I really wish I never met him or never fell for him.
on the other hand... this new friend is the best thing that has ever happened to me. He's definitely the most interesting person I've ever had the pleasure to meet. and of course, that days before he came were absolutely worthless...
I'm not saying that my friends are not worthy, it's just that I'm in awe... how can someone be so damn nice??
I had forgotten how sweet can some eyes be, and how warm a smile can be... when it's an honest smile. Not the everyday smile.. a true one..
I'm sick of acid rain.. I regret taking such a stupid thing to do an oral report... alwaysstasthesame, nothingeverchanges...
Best Wishes
Molks xxx