Thursday, October 26, 2006

I QUIT!!!!!!!

I'm so fucking tired!!!!!!!!!!!!


and stressed as well...

I've noticed I've got like 4 weeks of classes and 100000000 things to do, 4 BIG exams (two FCE's, ZD and Final Exam in german literature)

thousands of papers, articles, stories, tests... this is going to be another hell month....

an to make it worst... no one posts here!! I havent forgotten this blog, even though I've got a new one...

take care and best wishes... I hope to have at least one post... since in the last song there wasn't any...


Molks xxx

Thursday, October 19, 2006

You're The Reason I'm Leaving

Some granite wall
Numbs our bones, numbs our all
As we sit on skinny hands
Nothing to say, nothing at all
I don't know you and I don't want to
You're so awkward just like me
But I don't care
You're the reason I'm leaving
I'd no idea that in four years
I'd be hanging from a beam
behind the door of number ten
Singing fare thee well
I am leaving
Yes I leave it all to you
You're the reason I'm leaving
As we ride along under an optimistic sun
The radio sings that Everybody song by rem
And Here I Am Fighting Fighting
Yes I'm Fighting not to cry
And that's another reason
Why I oughtta hate you like I do
Like I do
I'm the reason you're leaving



Things have gotten a bit better... I’m still nervous about my presentation tomorrow....
I really like this song because it’s a bit of a hate song but without being too rude, and that’s is to be politically correct... sometimes it’s necessary not being rude the whole time like I do...


I SERIOUSLY don’t know what to write... my stock of songs to write about is empty right now..
But for all those who were worried, don’t be... I’m ok... JUST SHIT SCARED ABOUT TOMORROW!

Best Wishes
Molks xxx

Thursday, October 12, 2006

Drown With Me

Drown With Me

So you have been of use
And you have been abused
You know you look pale today
Your lipstick has gone astray

You sold out and lost your looks
You gave away all your books
(You should drown with me)
Your coil has been wound up tight
Unwind it with me tonight
(You should drown with me)

Tyre tracks Fresh on the ground
Where she will be found
Held under the water
Resting there in a stream
View from the cold water
Buried in green
Orange filter sky

Your drowning in family there
When will you come up for air
(You should drown with me)
Don't feel you let 'em down
Cos they have already drowned
(You should drown with me)

I wanted to write this song since a long time... I get a lot of memories with it... it makes me think of a really good friend of mine; because porcupine tree is his favourite band.
It’s the first time I read the lyrics... what do I think it means?? It’s about letting people down, and about how you shouldn’t care about it..
It doesn’t matter if you’re letting someone down as long as you feel you’re doing the right thing. It’s a bit harsh.. but how many times you have given up on something you wanted, just because other people told you not to do it? If I had followed other people’s opinion.. I wouldn’t be studying what I’m studying and I wouldn’t be with Him... you have to drown all that kind of people somehow.... just listen to your mind, and it will tell you exactly what to do...

I’m not very well for all those who want to know... I’m very stressed and worried about 1000 things to do... I didn’t do very well in 2 exams... tomorrow I’ve got another one... and he hasn’t texted me very much... he doesn’t remember that I exist I think..

I’ll try to write something happier next week... but that’ll depend on a lot of things...
Best wishes,Molks xxx

Thursday, October 05, 2006

Pure Morning...

Pure morning
A friend in need's a friend indeed

A friend with weed is better
A friend with breast and all the rest
A friend who's dressed in leather
A friend in need's a friend indeed
A friend who'll tease is better
Our thoughts compressed
Which makes us blessed
And makes for stormy weather

A friend in need's a friend indeed
My Japanese is better
And when she's pressed she will undress
And then she's boxing clever
A friend in need's a friend indeed
A friend who bleeds is better
My friend confessed she passed the test
And we will never sever

Day's dawning, skins crawling
Day's dawning, skins crawling
Day's dawning, skins crawling
Pure morning
Pure morning
Pure morning

A friend in need's a friend indeed
A friend who'll tease is better
Our thoughts compressed
Which makes us blessed
And makes for stormy weather
A friend in need's a friend indeed
A friend who bleeds is better
My friend confessed she passed the test
And we will never sever

Day's dawning, skins crawling
Day's dawning, skins crawling
Day's dawning, skins crawling
Pure morning
Pure morning
Pure morning
A friend in need's a friend indeed
My Japanese is better
And when she's pressed she will undress
And then she's boxing clever
A friend in need's a friend indeed
A friend with weed is better
A friend with breast and all the rest
A friend who's dressed in leather

I really didn’t know what song I was going to talk about... coz the one I wanted, I don’t have the lyrics...
So.. Pure Morning... song from 1998, from the Without You I’m Nothing album by Placebo (for a change)
My greatest friend dedicated this song to me in 2004... and even though I fell a bit tired of it... it means a lot.. and it’s like our compromise of friendship... and in spite of the rest of my friends ( whom I love too, of course) she’s like my most important... there’s a moment in your life in which you have a brother or sister... and I have to say that she’s my sister.. she’s been my sister for a long time and i hope she keeps being my sister till the day I die. Pali, this one is for you...
These 3 weeks have been really tough, I’ve been feeling a bit lost, tired and all those things... but I’m going home, I’m going to see my family, my friend and last but not least... I’m going to see HIM...
Best Wishes
Molks xxx